recently i'm just so.. comfortable thirsting about certain men
like i know that isn't revolutionary at all, a woman (or something like that) thirsting about men yeaaah i know
but that's exactly the thing, since i was a teen i always felt i had to "prove" i'm really actually queer, and as soon as i'm too vocal about my attraction to men, i'm afraid people will think "see, like i said, you are """straight""" after all",
i know 1) being attracted to men doesn't erase my attraction to women and 2) it shouldn't matter what people think anyway
but that shit is deep-seated
to a point where i sometimes feel guilty in a way when i thirst over men too much, like all by myself, in private
but yes recently i'm so enjoying being wildly attracted to certain men, while not feeling weird/guilty about it, knowing it doesn't erase anything, and it doesn't matter if people think it does