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Sally Rooney, Conversations with Friends (via camillamacaulay)
— Sally Rooney, Conversations With Friends
you can never please everybody. when you stand up for yourself, there will be people who think you’re overreacting or being a jerk. when you try your best to be kind to everyone you meet, there will be people you’re being fake or that you desperately want to be liked. you won’t ever be able to be the best version of yourself if you live for other people, because that “best version” is entirely subjective and therefore impossible to embody. be your personal best, your personal favorite, and you’ll attract people who will see you that way as well.
stop! the air could be toxic. if the air is toxic we’re all dead anyways. don’t listen to her, she’s one of the privileged. brave princess. if we’re gonna survive, we can’t just live by whatever the hell we want! we need rules. who makes the rules? you? for now we make the rules. i trust him! our princess has that effect.. ready to be a badass? watch and learn. still watching.... you may be a total ass half the time but i need you bellamy. we can’t do this without you. those kids out there.... you inspire them. now there’s something i thought i’d never see. i can’t lose you too okay? you care about him. i care about all of them. yet you worry about him more. i thought you hated that plan. that it would get me killed. i was being weak. bellamy? you came through. i knew you would. i think we deserve a drink. if you need forgiveness i’ll give that to you. you’re forgiven. please come inside. you don’t have to do this alone. we can’t lose clarke! we can’t lose her... i need you. you need me? you left me. im sorry for leaving... i knew i could because they had you. too bad you were never that devoted to gina. forgiveness is hard for us. i was so angry at you for leaving. i don’t wanna feel that way anymore. we need each other. the only way we’re gonna pull this off is together. her friends are her weakness. start with bellamy blake. leadership is a lonely pursuit... she’s lucky to have you. you keep her centered. you’ve got it backwards. if i’m on that list, you’re on that list. write it down or i will. she’ll come around and see how special you are. you’ve got such a big heart bellamy. i’ve got you for that. i left her behind. bellamy... if you can hear me, it’s been two thousand one hundred and ninety-nine days since praimfaya... i don’t know why i still do this every day. maybe it’s my way of staying sane. bellamy? clarke knew you would come. two hundred and eighty-three lives for one.... she must be pretty important to you. she is. you’re really here? you saved us all. and now you’re home. the hostage taker and his girlfriend. here we go again... pleading for the life of a traitor... who you love. do you have any idea how much she cares about you? i shouldn’t tell you this, but when you were on the ring she called you on the radio every day. for six years. you’re my family too. you don’t get it... if bellamy knows clarke is dead then all of this is for nothing. i won’t let you die. she was right to depend on you. once the head stops telling the heart to beat its over. the heart and the head. clarke i need you... im not losing her again! the heart and the head. the heart and the head.
multiple mental health professionals: that was a traumatic event for you
me: ok but that’s a stupid thing to be traumatized by so
the biggest plot hole in the eurovision film is that it's set in edinburgh, and for that to have happened the uk must have won the year before, which is, how shall i put it, fucking impossible
Are you gay?
No! No, no– Of course not, I am Russian. There no gay people in Russia.
Statistically speaking, I think that’s impossible.
I assure you. Hundred percent.
Gender-fluid? Non-binary?
Fact of truth. No gay Russian. No non-binary. I– He, him pronoun.
He, him.
bye grandpa
When Adrian Brandon starts to color a portrait, he sets a timer. For his rendering of Breonna Taylor, the clock is set to 26 minutes—for George Floyd, 46 minutes, for Tony McDade, 38, and for Aiyana Stanley Jones, just seven. “When the alarm sounds, I am hit with a wave of emotions ranging from anger, to deep sadness, to hopelessness, to feeling lucky that I am still here,” he says.
The Brooklyn-based artist is working on Stolen, a series of partially filled-in depictions of Black people murdered by police. Each portrait remains incomplete as Brandon only colors one minute for each year of the subject’s life that was cut short. “Aside from being able to give the viewer a visual of the various ages affected by police violence, the timer creates a lot of anxiety for me as the artist,” he says, wondering, “’When is the timer going off?’ ‘Will I be able to finish this eye?’ ‘Damn, I haven’t even gotten to the lips yet.’” In a note to Colossal, Brandon expanded on the project:
Although this anxiety may seem minor in that the consequences for me are very low, it does really have an effect on me. Anxiety is a feeling that black people are far too familiar with, and to experience that feeling while illustrating these portraits allows each piece to feel like a performance. A lot of Black people are forced to live with this anxiety and accept it as part of our every day. But these feelings build up and are exhausting. I shouldn’t have to do a prayer every time I see police pursuing a Black person in the streets. I shouldn’t feel anxious when the police are talking to a person of color. I shouldn’t feel so damn anxious that I remove my hat and jewelry when the cops pull me over. I shouldn’t feel so anxious that I would second guess calling the police if I ever needed to. This series is pulling me in, in ways that art has never done.
Brandon has been sharing deeper insights behind the portraits, in addition to timelapse videos, on Instagram.
little notes for when you’re sad:
I guess it depends what kind of person you want to be - Jess Amelia (via jess-amelia)
me: haha oh god this is so bad im making so many unsupported claims and pulling all this analysis out of my ass
my prof in the margins: excellent analysis!
me:
