It will forever confuse me how people can say one thing and do another with a clear conscious. I’ve learned about myself recently that I have to keep giving people the benefit of the doubt even when I know it’s the farthest thing from the truth. It keeps me from becoming a distrusting cynical old hag. I don’t want to live alone grumpy and shouting at people to get off my lawn. I want to enjoy the beauty of human nature. But it gets harder and harder to do that when people aren’t honest with me.
Honestly it takes me a long time to get over the realization that trust has been broken. Especially coupled with the embarrassment and shame of not knowing that person very long and putting so much stock and trust into the things they said. Perceived reality is a bitch.
Being open to new people and new things is terrifying and I have had little proof over the years that it’s worth it.
But nevertheless she persisted.
