I’m back???
WHO THE FUCK USES TUMBLR ANYMORE? Like I’m sure no one that follows me or that I follow use it......
I’m back because I want to start blogging and sharing my thoughts, feelings and various things that occur to me during my days. My memory is shit so this will be useful in the future. Also, this is a great way to reflect and express myself as I continue to fight my fucking demons. My tumblr is as old as these demons. This is hilarious XD!
“I fucked up”
Today, it fucking monsooned in the middle of the day. A coworker tried to come in from her car by using her car sunshade....BIG MISTAKE. LITERALLY IT WAS RAINING SIDEWAYS. She looked like a reporter during a storm! Rain and wind beat her up. We get her through a sidedoor instead of the front one and she was drenched. When asked why she didn’t just wait it out she said, “ I had a salad but no fork....I really wanted to eat my salad...I fucked up guys” XDDDD! Some crazy ass stuff. Luckily she had a spare change of clothes in the car. We put a heater on her and kept her warm until the storm stopped and she could go change.
“My gym wife came back”
Okay. Like my gym wife in my mind. I’ve never talked to her ;-; I’m too SHY! Like I think it is completely weird to approach girls in general. The gym is even worse, because it’s so weirddddd when dudes try to talk to girls at the gym... ugh. ANDDD I have a mean as fuck face soooo no one wants to fuck with me. Anywho, my gym wife works out GOOD. Not just booty workouts like these other hoes out here. She knows how to workout everything and I’m honestly in awe. Big legs. Slim waist. Good definition in her back and arms. UGHHHHHHH >///< SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL. Best of all, she’s a connoisseur of anime. She had on some anime shirts a few of the times she came.
Anywho, she had been mia for like 3 weeks. I was so sad ;( but she came back today. YES. She saw me and we kinda made eye contact. I looked away trying to focus on my cardio (bike riding today). Closed my eyes and just pedaled away. About a few minutes later, I open them and guess what? She picked the elliptical in front of me. RIGHT FUCKING IN FRONT OF ME. Out of ALLLLLLLL of the machines, she had to pick the one in front of me. Lord. I was being tested. Her legs were POPPIN. I prayed so hard and closed my eyes. I had to RESIST THE SIN. THE TEMPTATION to peek. I opened my eyes to change a song and she does the equivalent of a super effective attack (think fire vs grass), she FUCKING PUTS HER HANDS ON HER WAIST AND KIND MAKES HER ASS EVEN BIGGER. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.
I almost had a heart attack. I pressed my eyes closed so fucking hard I got a headache. I was being tested. I finished my shit and quickly GTFO of there. LORD HELP. Shortly after I left, I noticed she left. Literally all this happened in like less than 10 minutes. Girl there is no way you just decided to do cardio for that short of time knowing how seriously you take working out.
Maybe senpai notices me....who knows. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ Hopefully I see her again tomorrow. Some good motivation to push through my workout in addition to my extreme hatred for myself and trying to get back at all of those who said I ain’t shit.
Aight that’s it for today ╮ (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.) ╭
