{ Denouement }
Petyr noticed. Petyr noticed everything. He noticed her fine silks and her decorous adornments; he noticed the way she pulled back her hair only halfway; he noticed the delicate layer of powder she’d dusted her skin with. That was not to say he believed such adjustments were made for him. Sansa Stark was a queen, and her dress must needs reflect such at all times. That the neckline of her gown veered ever slightly towards immodest, or that the jeweled slippers on her feet had not yet been worn since his arrival meant little. Of course, Petyr knew better. Where Sansa reached for her cup, Petyr allowed his gaze to follow her hand, watching how her fingers elegantly curled about the silvered stem. It was her smile he next observed, carefully taking in the measure of her lips, the way her shoulders were pulled back. She was masterful at this, at swallowing her countenance and recreating it to best fit her audience. “Winterfell and a son,” Petyr parroted, his own smile edging something close to sardonic. He leaned back into his chair, filling it, one hand laid to rest on the wooden brace. “A tremendous success, Your Grace. No need for modesty, not when among friends.” Is that what they were? Friends? The way she sliced through the meat upon her plate Petyr found strangely hypnotic. The silver was poised, the hold of her fingers firm, the slice of the blade through sinewy boar both aggressive and polished. There was not so much as a slip to her grasp; Petyr recalled a night long ago, one in which her blade had rushed against her own palm in some desperate attempt to ground herself. There was no need for that now. Sansa was grounded, utterly in control. Oh, and so gloriously annoyed by him, his words, his cutting tongue which had no right. Petyr smiled, an unctuous curl to his mouth which surely did nothing to tamp down her irritation. “Forgive me. It was not my intent to offend.” Of course it was. Nothing Petyr said came without due diligence. Even the fact that he spoke it so wantonly before her serving girls was intentional. Petyr let his eyes trail, momentarily, to the shadowed doorway leading towards the kitchens where they no doubt still lingered. “I have no cause to criticize anything you have built here. It is a sound beginning to a lasting legacy. Gods be good.” The smile was sharp before he brought the cup back to his lips and partook again of wine. Little interest the man seemed to have in the spread of food. Sansa knew Petyr loathed it. Every inch of it. The wretched castle which still stood mostly in disrepair. The scattered North barely clinging onto poorly-forged alliances. The emptied coffers and embarrassing finances. Most of all he hated Harrold Hardyng. A marriage which Petyr may have brokered, yes, but certainly not one he had ever intended to last. Long had the boy outgrown his worth. There was a son. An heir. That was enough. That was the only measure of the Young Falcon’s worth. Long spent – and certainly it had taken well and long enough even for that. Was Petyr pleased by Sansa’s progress? No. Not particularly. A progress which had turned its back and openly shunned the Mockingbird for years was no progress to be celebrated. “My intent…” Petyr started, his eyes a bold stare into her own. “My lady, I had thought you always knew much of my intent?” One, bare twitch of an eyebrow. The light of the fire winked in rubied gleam from the bejeweled ring worn on his smallest finger. Lower his voice grew, dry and papery, well below the threshold of eavesdropping servants. “My intent was never for this.”
It was not lost on her how Petyr ignored the food in favor of the drink. She had learned from him how to read a person by the actions they thought nothing of, though there was no need for such analysis here. Reading Petyr was usually a task of some skill, one in which she prided herself, but right now he was being more than open. It unsettled her just a bit to see him this way and she had the distinct impression that she was being toyed with.
Still she went about the meal at an even pace, hoping that nothing out of place showed in her own behavior. Sharing a table with him once more was an experience that left her more than a bit rattled, her heart throbbing just below her breast, her throat threatening to close up even as she tried to swallow. She had thought about him daily; he had haunted the shadows of her mind. And now he was here, giving her that look of slight disappointment, and it was as if she was a girl in the Vale once more, settling into his lap.
But she wasn’t and she must keep that in mind--she was a married woman, she was a mother, she was a queen. As Petyr went on, slightly mocking, Sansa regarded him with a serene smile. She let his words wash over him, lingering on the fact that no matter what he was saying it was good to hear his voice once more, to have that anchor once more.
But when his voice dropped and he issued his sincere feelings, the persona slipping off for just a moment, she froze from the shock. Her knife was raised and it lingered there for a moment, caught in the space between, and for the first time she locked her eyes on his form.
He looked so unassuming sitting there, the slender man with the gray hair. He regarded her in silence, allowing his words to sink in, watching her as intently as ever. He always, even after all this time, made her feel as if she stood before him stark naked, as if he were looking into her soul. At some point in her life she had found that comforting; at all points she had felt a pull in those eyes.
The words came to her before she could even think on them, spilling out of her mouth as if they had been pent up for years. “Nor was it mine.” The truth tasted bitter on her tongue but she felt weightless after speaking it. She eased back in her chair, placing the knife beside the plate with an even hand.
She had dreamed of Winterfell for years, had constructed a future built around the regaining of the house, but once it was in her hands it was hard to admit that it brought her joy. She had pictured the North as it was, full of love and a child’s foolishness, a family that she longed for, but the reality was nothing but shadows and ash. Death lingered in her footsteps here, and the worry that she was unworthy of such a place rested on her shoulders. It kept her awake at night, a nameless guilt, a mocking thing.
She could not look at him for long. Her hand reached out to grasp her wine, bringing it to her lips, hoping to case that awful truth away.