thinking about this again

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Lockdown Moons, England 2020 | Taken from my bedroom window 

why do so many deeply depressing songs slap?

Paramore: I can’t think of getting old, it only makes me want to die and I can’t think of who I was ‘cause it just makes me want to cry, cry, cry

Billie Eilish: if “I love you” was a promise, would you break it, if you’re honest? tell the mirror what you know she’s heard before “i don’t wanna be you anymore”

girl in red: pretty face with pretty bad dreams, no one knows I cry in my sleep. waking up feeling like shit, it’s a normal thing to feel like this

Mitski: and still nobody wants me, still nobody wants me and I know no one will save me

Sigrid: we’re stangers, perfect pretenders. we’re falling head over heels for something that ain’t real, it’ll never be us, just you and I

Tove Lo: spend my days locked in a haze, tryna forget you, babe, I fall back down. I gotta stay high, all my life, to forget I’m missin’ you

Marina and the Diamonds: girls, we do, whatever it will take, cause girls don’t want, we don’t want our hearts to break, in two. so it’s better to be fake, can’t risk losing in love again, babe

Lorde: this dream isn’t feeling sweet we’re reeling through the midnight streets and I’ve never felt more alone, it feels so scary getting old

Me: