i posted this on twitter but im just gonna say the same thing here. im sad but im also incredibly angry. im angry that sulli was hated and abused for being groomed by a grown ass man since she was 15. articles will say she just dated him but will leave out the fact that they came out publicly once she was an adult but it was an open secret they were "together" since she was underaged. instead of going afted the man who preyed on her, she was harassed for it. she was blamed for fx's schedules by her own "fans". everything she did was understand a spotlight even though she wasn't even a fucking idol anymore. her not wearing a bra was a problem, her playing with her cat was a problem, her being quirky and weird was a problem. she literally wasn't allowed to be herself. now knets and the shitty ass translators who chose to translate hate comments and trolls so impressionable inets could hate her too will pretend to be sad. they'll act like they never saw this coming. im angry that people like netizenbuzz still exists after years of her purposely translating nasty comments about girls she didn't like. im angry that koreaboo and allkpop will act like they aren't complicit. and im angry about the upcoming western articles who love to use jonghyun as trauma porn will start using sulli now without truly understanding the situation. they'll now be used to show how "evil" the k entertainment industry is. they don't deserve that. im so angry and im so hurt for sulli. im sorry everyone let you down. i hope youve finally found peace and every small flower i see will remind me of you. šŗ
sulliās death hit me kinda hard, weirdly, i was never a fan of hers (not because i had anything against her iām just not really a fan of any celebrity) although i did think she was the prettiest girl idol in the industry. this is a long incohrent ramble but i guess itās because she was so young and whether we like it or not celebrities symbolize certain things through their actions and image, and sulli in many ways did not fit the box of a typical korean idol. in fact she hasnāt been an idol for a long time and was one of the few who were outspoken about the way people consumed her as a woman in the entertainment industry. sulli did have a history of scandals, (chronologically) most notably dating a guy who was twice her age, strange photoshoots, not wearing a bra and speaking on television about why refuses to wear a bra, apparently taking classes on feminism at a womenās university etc. i donāt really follow celebrity news so i only know the gist of things but she definitely was always a topic of discussion, even in korean feminist forums. this may just be my opinion but i think a lot of what she went through over the last couple of years were closely related to what the majority of young korean women went through: realizing the criticisms we face happen specifically because of our gender, the limitations and constrictions of womanhood etc. obviously i donāt know what really went through her mind but she definitely had something to say and was brave enough to show it. what i do know is that people didnāt take her seriously, and her actions always resulted in even harsher sexual harassment. the reports and reactions to her death were appalling on so many levels and they really reflect how she was taken by the public. her death was reported even before the police confirmed it and before the confirmation got to her family. journalists just took it and ran with it for shock value and views. some of the articles of her death actually began with sentences likeĀ āno-bra advocator sulli committed suicideā, like r u seriousā¦ and of course the people in the comments are likeĀ āwell now i can harass her and not get sued for it lolā or blaming korean feminists for apparently driving her to her own death. i donāt know how sulliās image was consumed by foreign fans, but whenever you typed in sulliās name in korean portal sites youād get results likeĀ āsulli nippleā and other nasty shit like that. apparently people knew she suffered from depression and she spoke about it publicly too. its just insane to me how malicious people can be, how disgusting journalism is, they genuinely have no respect and think theyāre allowed to do whatever hidden behind internet anonymity. and its soooo obvious that girl idols go through the shit they do because theyāre women. renowned boy idols are literally dealing with illegal drugs, sex trafficking, making a shit ton of money off of it, yet the police let them free and 6 months later theyāre on television again. while girl idols suffer from their ex boyfriends threatening to release their spy cam sex tapes, they get men burning their photos for reading a book on feminism. sulliās death is obviously tragic and no one will ever know the personal details behind her suicide, but the context of her death as a korean woman celebrity makes this situation so much sadder and infuriating.
today weāve lost a woman, an icon, ive looked up to for years
i sincerely hope she finds peace in her next life
for those who cared about and loved sulli and for those who lived again the times in which we lost jonghyun today, i hope you find peace in normal/domestic things and i hope you are safe. know that you are never alone in these moments and it's okay to take a break or two, but don't give up on small things ā”
To anyone affected by the sudden news of Sulliās passing: Itās okay to grieve and cry. Donāt let anyone else tell you something different. If you are in a similar situation regarding suicidal thoughts, reach out for help, no matter if itās a family member, a friend, a help hotline, a therapist,ā¦ Nobody has to be alone in this.
There has been news that Sulli has passed away today. I hope everyone prays for her family and friends for their lost and keep her in mind today.Ā
You did your best whilst you were with us, your presences on earth touched many lives. Hopefully now you can rest. Rest in peace Sulli.Ā
"My name is Sulli. Sul means snow and Li means a pear flower. So I'll probably reborn as a flower that is small but full of strong vitality."
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#kdramawomensweek: day 8 // age of youth love-fest | happy international womenās day!
So I pretty much put together some of my favorite scenes from Age of Youth. Theyāre all scenes that really hit me hard emotionally or just personally resonated with me. When Jin Myung, whose feelings have slowly been bubbling underneath the surface, finally overflows with emotion, full of rage and agony. She finally demands the apology sheās been silently asking for. When she fell to the floor in sobs, I cried with her. I felt that grief. When Yi Na realizes sheās been holding herself back and finally lets herself go. Dammit, that scene just hit me. When Eun Jae blows up and just begs for the housemates to be nice to her I could personally relate to her pain and just how nervous she must have felt to finally let that out and tell these almost strangers how alienated they made her feel and how much it had hurt her. Thatās not easy.
As you can see, most of my favorite scenes include the girls all together. The relationship that developed between these girls, different in pretty much every way, from being strangers just living in a house together to sisters that loved and protected each other in any way they could was really the main strength of the show. Even that hilarious scene when the girls beat up Eun Jaeās boyfriend because they think heās some stranger out to hurt her shows just how willing they are to protect each other. I mean, they burst out of the house the second they heard Eun Jae scream. The girls immediately went to comfort Ye Eun when she finally broke up with a boyfriend she loved so much. And when Eun Jae finally comes home after being out all night, the girls just hug her, saying that everything is okay because sheās here and sheās safe. Iām tearing up just thinking of the scene. That love for each other that made them one of the best friendships of 2016 and just in general.
What I love about the girls individual stories is the journey they went through during the drama and where they ended up. They donāt end the drama suddenly complete and whole, but you know theyāve set themselves on that track. They learn to start forgiving and loving themselves. The ghosts theyāve lived with are never completely gone but theyāre not held back and tortured by them anymore.
Anyway, what I really want to say is that I love these girls so so so so so much. Thereās really nothing I can say that can convey the amount of love I have for this drama and the Belle Epoque girls. It warms my heart when I think of them and Iām just so happy thereās going to be a season 2.
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