Goodbye...
So, I don’t really know how to write this post and I’ve put it off for a long time, but I have to do it some time, and now seems as good as ever. Basically, I haven’t been online recently and it’s not because I haven’t had time or anything but because I’ve needed to distance myself from this. You may know, probably not, but I’ve suffered from really bad anxiety for the past year or so and tumblr was always a kind of trigger. I thought it would get easier to come online with time and, for a while, that even seemed realistic but now I see that that really isn’t the case. I got a new phone the other week and decided not to install the tumblr app. I very quickly realised that my head was clearer because suddenly I didn’t have this extra stress playing on my head. I joined tumblr as an escape from everything else in my life, as a place where I could enjoy talking to people who were inspired by the same person I am. Since I joined tumblr, however, its become less of a community and people began to get into more arguments and, from where I’m sitting, it had turned toxic. Distancing myself from this site has been one of the best decisions I have made in a long time. I’ve learned not to stress about how low my queue got or how many likes an edit got and instead focus on other things, like my mental state. It’s not like I’ve stopped liking Taylor or her music or anything. And it’s also not like I’ve stopped caring about all the friends I’ve made. I still love all that but I’m a different person now and tumblr just doesn’t fit with my life anymore.
I’ve been more active on twitter, you can follow me (miabowles13) if you want to see what I’m up to.
I’m sorry that this has gotten to this stage and I really want you all to know that this site will always be special to me… as much as I sound negative about tumblr in this post, it was the first place I felt I really fit in and for that tumblr will always be special to me.
I really hope you respect my decision to log out and, for the last time,
Love, Mia
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