i'll fight you

i’m

alive

bitches

I am.... somehow alive.

It's a horrible feeling.

Standing alone in a room, dissociating, after relapsing and cutting yourself after years clean.

just standing

staring at nothing

knowing you have no one to talk to about how your feeling.

knowing you could disappear right now and it would take people a long time to notice you were gone.

or maybe, they would never notice.

Thank god my birthday is over offically.

I can’t believe I’m doing this, I have never in my life asked for help like this but it’s a hard time and I guess I’m desperate. Everyone is struggling right now, and I’m part of the masses at this point. As some of you know a while back I had left a toxic job that made me work harder than everyone else but refused to give me raises or promotions while everyone around me got them. One of my managers said horrible things about me behind my back, called me a push over just for working hard. The commute wasn’t easy either, it was starting to feel like I was losing money. I left in order to find new opportunities, and had so many amazing things coming my way including some freelance florist work and interviews. Because of the virus my jobs are all canceled and the companies I applied for have canceled my interviews until further notice. I am soon about to have no health insurance and my parents are threatening me about rent and living with them if I’m late. My savings are almost gone, and I am really scared about my future. My dad has even threatened to get rid of my dog against my will. I am getting desperate, and doing everything I can to make money but it’s become impossible during quarantine. I can’t even go work at a grocery store right now because I have such a low immune system. If anyone can spare anything, every little bit counts. If you can’t spare anything, I understand. These are hard times and we are all just doing our best. Even a reblog would be so helpful to me, and would mean the world. I am not amazing at editing, but if you need something simple made please let me know and I’m willing to try to do it for you as a thank you! I can’t do a lot, but I am so willing to try! My PayPal info: https://www.paypal.me/reylynns Thank you in advance, and please stay safe! Take care of yourselves, it’s a scary world out there but we can make it through this. I know we can somehow!

People really are cowards. I'm pretty easy to talk to and pretty damn understanding. It's when people are to cowardly to admit they are wrong or that they hurt someone that I start wanting to square up with them behind an abandoned Applebee's. Like, hold my earrings I'm about to make an asshole cry.