i miss all my friends, but they all moved away.

2023 6 month mark

4 things lined up:

1. Major EU trading group deal

2. 7 project lead development opportunity. Unfortunately, owner that hired me wife got cancer, this one’s unpredictable.

3. Trading group permanent position

4. Finally deciding if I’m going to pursue a masters in Chemistry.

Still trying to find a way to quit day job, all these are future tense for income. Upside, I made a bag on BRC-20s, OXBT did a dance and I looped 40k free tokens. Sitting at 0.14 each right now after a 0.27 high. Lose a couple, win a couple.

Friend is finishing masters, other just finished PhD. Am I really moving forward?

GF really wants me to move in with her, she has a house. 

I rarely drink now, who knew he was right about that.

Really need to hit the gym again.

"Hi, can I get a venti iced americano in a grande cup? add an extra shot.”

got lost there for a year. i’m back, suckers. let’s get this fucking money. 2025 generational wealth.

i’ve had a relationship with a girl now since october and she says im not good at the little things anymore and she’s starting to numb herself from it. she has slight codependency too that i’ve been trying to manage but not enable.

i’ve been having some memory loss over the years and i’ve been starting to forget things. don’t know if it’s because i have more stuff going on work wise, or if my hands are always full nowadays. but she says i used to remember now i don’t.

she was my best friend, and now i feel like im going to lose my best friend if i can’t make this work. i don’t want to lose my best friend.

OK WELL I SMASHED WE ARE GOING TO HAVE PROBLEMS

i have developed meaningful relationships in my life by my brain making connections to the small details and exploring them without me consciously knowing i’m doing it and i’m wondering if everything falls apart if one day it decides to not do that anymore

so that woman i talked about, i told her, and made out with her. how important she was to me

turned 1k into this in 4 days

and im now realizing that im now just hunting for my next dopamine hit because normal life is so fuckign boring

posting this here to remind myself of this massive chip i have yet to remove off my shoulder

i really wish that was a typo, i ate 600 calories today and with those teq shots im over my caloric intake by around 700 calories, sad.

and just like that, it’s my queue to finally move on

can we skip to the part where my healing is done and i can finally be happy i dont wanna feel sad anymore

the app i develop for got sold to a german company - i am now mister worldwide