As some of you know @thesweetfandomlife shouted out my new blog speaking-memories. I made a new tumblr to make a new start. Somewhere I can try to be happy. And hopefully stay that way for awhile. If you would please follow the new blog for the same me. But a happier version. I won't leave this new one. Just please. Wow I'm begging. So for the final time. Goodbye and farewell. X
Hey guys, uh long time no see. I would say schools been up my ass and it has. But that's not why i haven't been active a lot. I hope all of you know this by now but I have depression. Sometimes it's barely noticeable. Other times. It's blatantly obvious. Well for the past almost month. It's been bad. I haven't gotten out of bed but to go to school. I don't eat except school lunch which sucks. And I just don't have the energy to put up this facade where I'm a happy go lucky guy. When I'm not. I have done so good recently. I just don't know what really triggered it this time. I honestly don't know anymore. I'm scared. Scared of what I could do. Or what could happen. I cry myself to sleep 5 out of 7 day of the week. So. Just an update. I'll try my hardest to get better.
Stories I tell myself. #1
I got a crown.
Sorry haven't been alive. The Fosters is a new obsession. And sleep isn't existent.
Hey guys. I just made a group chat. It’s open to anyone. On Kik. The hashtag is #talkingsfun bai.
I think the year 2020 will bring huge discounts in laser eye surgery.
I wonder how often Tupac’s mom listens to Dear Momma
HOLY SHIT, IT WAS THE ORIGINAL ONE
MAKE A WISH
the first post ever on tumblr
I WAS EXPECTING IT TO BE A REMAKE OF SOME SORT HOLY FUCK
WHO THE FUCK KEEPS BRINGING THIS BACK
reblog this because it shows up every blue moon
I FOUND IT ✊
I WAS SO SCARED IT WOULDNT BE THE ORIGINAL
So good
rip
The fuck did I just watch?
This. Website. It changes you.
I do this with pll and this is how I feel.
Unknown.
Gerard Way.
This is me rn. Dreading tomorrow to come.
I need to get serious again. So a lot of people ask me about the scars on my body. Not anyone on here just irl. Yes. I have self harmed but not in forever. No I’m not proud of what I did then but am I ashamed no because we all have our ways of coping. And mine came with a blade. Self harm isn’t a fashion statement or something that you do for fun it’s something that some people do to feel alive. Because depression makes you feel dead all the time. And we need to make sure we still are alive. People who don’t understand this don’t need to judge the way we live. Of any of you and I honestly mean this if any of you want to or need to talk to someone about self harming or depression in general. I am open to talk about anything. If you want to do it privately my Kik is Airexci. Please message me with any question. Sorry again I hate to be serious. Just it bothers me but yeah.
