I’m trash don’t look at me.

My name is Sandy Haveman, and I am currently in a financial pit of hell. I have a slue of medical conditions such as depression, generalized anxiety disorder, carpal tunnel, polycystic ovarian syndrome, chronic migraine, and asthma. I first went to college at one of the many Art Institutes, which is why I am in so much debt to begin with. I did graduate, but I have been unable to secure employment. The majority of my student loans are private through Chase, and I have been informed many times that because they do not have to provide low income repayment options, they don’t, and most likely won’t. I have to pay the amount they decide, or else. The ‘or else’ scares me because my dad is my cosigner. Chase is currently asking more than I earn a month, and they don’t see a problem with this. Since my dad is my cosigner, they can go after him and impact his job as well as go after me. I went to South University in an attempt to get a degree that I can use more easily, and to defer my loans, as a Chase representative told me I could. She lied. I have a Masters degree in Criminal Justice now, but because I have no experience, I am in the same boat of being unable to find work. On top of crippling student loan debt, I have several medical bills due to a cyst in my sinus cavity, an ER visit due to a nurse at a clinic being paranoid about my heart, a chiropractor for my migraines, and seeing specialists because the issues I have apparently are all “specialized.” Today I also had to go to an Urgent Care due to the fact of mystery pain cause from my time of the month, and I now have to see another specialist to attempt to find out the cause. The fact that I can keep my job seems to be a miracle to me because I have a stuttering issue when stressed, so I end up just sounding harsh and mean so I can be understood. My depression and anxiety have been through the roof, making it a challenge just to get up in the morning. The thought of talking to strangers makes me feel like I’d rather chop off an arm, but it is my job to interact with countless strangers a day. I’d be much happier at a desk job, but I have what I have, and I do my best to get my job done. I honestly feel like a failure, regardless, because I cannot afford my bills. I’m 26 and I can’t afford my own place to live, I can’t cover my bills, and I’m a burden on those around me. I have a hard time admitting this, but I need help. Any kind of help whatsoever, I would forever appreciate.

UNFORTUNATE UPDATE:

Things have gotten worse, as Sandy’s car has broken down (again), and she’s scheduled for further medical examinations and potentially expensive treatments. We haven’t raised anything at all to help her, despite how desperate the situation is right now. Please help. Please spread the word of this! ANYTHING helps! 1 dollar, 1 cent… One reblog. Please help Sandy!

Update: Medically I’m doing better. In two months I will be discussing with my doctor, if my pain remains the same, what to do next, which will most likely include exploratory surgery to see if its endometriosis or not. But my health, except for the pain, seems to be on the rise. Due to paying for my car to get fixed, and for my bf’s car to get fixed, and my bank suddenly losing $300 and there’s no documentation of where the hell that could have gone, I’m now completely out of money to pay any bills. I’ve been over my account multiple times online and with the bank itself, and the numbers keep changing, something is wrong. And there’s nothing I can do to fix it. It was either a glitch in the account that told me a higher number to begin with, or something else, but it cannot be fixed. That’s $300 I will never get back. So I’m signal boosting this again. Please, I need help to catch up on my bills, to get things on track again. Any amount of help would be appreciated more than you know. 

My name is Sandy Haveman, and I am currently in a financial pit of hell. I have a slue of medical conditions such as depression, generalized anxiety disorder, carpal tunnel, polycystic ovarian syndrome, chronic migraine, and asthma. I first went to college at one of the many Art Institutes, which is why I am in so much debt to begin with. I did graduate, but I have been unable to secure employment. The majority of my student loans are private through Chase, and I have been informed many times that because they do not have to provide low income repayment options, they don’t, and most likely won’t. I have to pay the amount they decide, or else. The ‘or else’ scares me because my dad is my cosigner. Chase is currently asking more than I earn a month, and they don’t see a problem with this. Since my dad is my cosigner, they can go after him and impact his job as well as go after me. I went to South University in an attempt to get a degree that I can use more easily, and to defer my loans, as a Chase representative told me I could. She lied. I have a Masters degree in Criminal Justice now, but because I have no experience, I am in the same boat of being unable to find work. On top of crippling student loan debt, I have several medical bills due to a cyst in my sinus cavity, an ER visit due to a nurse at a clinic being paranoid about my heart, a chiropractor for my migraines, and seeing specialists because the issues I have apparently are all “specialized.” Today I also had to go to an Urgent Care due to the fact of mystery pain cause from my time of the month, and I now have to see another specialist to attempt to find out the cause. The fact that I can keep my job seems to be a miracle to me because I have a stuttering issue when stressed, so I end up just sounding harsh and mean so I can be understood. My depression and anxiety have been through the roof, making it a challenge just to get up in the morning. The thought of talking to strangers makes me feel like I’d rather chop off an arm, but it is my job to interact with countless strangers a day. I’d be much happier at a desk job, but I have what I have, and I do my best to get my job done. I honestly feel like a failure, regardless, because I cannot afford my bills. I’m 26 and I can’t afford my own place to live, I can’t cover my bills, and I’m a burden on those around me. I have a hard time admitting this, but I need help. Any kind of help whatsoever, I would forever appreciate.

The nearest outfits collection~

Please call these pictures “No hat no life”…._(:з」∠)_

沒有帽子不能活系列穿搭來啦！（x 最後附帶上新品偷跑~~8月或者9月會上架XDD一定記得來看喲~

1&2, hat: Alèthe / scarf: R-SERIES / JSK, bag&shoes: IW / tights: Grimoire / parasol: BSSB.

3, hat: Corgi / blouse: R-SERIES / vest,pants&tights: IW / bag: BSSB

4&5, OP, bag, stockings&shoes: IW / brooch: R-SERIES / parasol: BSSB.

6&7, hat: Burgess Hats’ / blouse&pants: R-SERIES / tails: B.O.Z.

8, hat: Deserve / JSK: R-SERIES / stockings&bag: IW.

9, hat&bolero: R-SERIES / JSK: IW/  parasol: BSSB.

10, Yes! This is a sneak peek of our new design! The whole series will be released between Aug and Sep! Do not miss it then~ :P hat, eye patch, blouse&vestcoat: R-SERIES , pants: A&P.

A String of Unfortunate Events

Aha…so I really hate doing this. I really do. But I’m not in a position to complain. So, as some of you know, I was just diagnosed with walking pneumonia and I’m not allowed to work till Thursday. That is going to seriously kill my paycheck. Most of you know that my life has been absolutely hell with my private student loans. I’m still very behind on them and nothing seems to be improving. I still owe so much in medical bills that it is insane. I’m so much in debt that many days it feels like I can’t afford to live. Recently, however, my boyfriend’s car broke down. He has to get the head gasket replaced. So he used my car for work, and then the alternator in my car died. His mom’s van is broken down: the battery refuses to hold a charge. His brother just blown out two tires, so we’re down to one car for 6 people. This makes life really difficult, especially since I have no way to get to a pharmacy to get a prescription I need.  So I made a donate button with some help. I will be making a commissions chart so that I can do something for money, try and help my situation. I’m just having difficulty staying vertical orz So if you can help, I would appreciate that greatly. If you can’t, please reblog to see if someone else can help. Pride is a big issue I have, so this is bothering me, but I do need help.

"…and they’re still doing the same thing nowadays…" [x] [x]

                                                        -Malcolm X, 24th/June/1963-

Nobody gives the black girl mob credit for being smart as fuck. They clown but at the end of the day they are really intelligent.

And it’s not subtle at all. Taystee is a math prodigy in addition to being well-read, Poussey is multilingual, Cindy just knows shit, Suzanne studies Shakespeare, Watson was a good student in addition to being a track star, Vee is basically an evil genius. Piper often learns the most from them; they taught her how to fight and helped translate Pennsatucky’s biblical threat. The show flat out acknowledges the (academic) intelligence of the black inmates time and time again, but the audience collectively ignores it.

Drew this as an icon of an account I’m slowly setting up.

so was I not supposed to fall in love with the french spy pigeon or

playing around with styles

Emergency Commissions

As some of you know, my car has been a source of stress for some time. About 1 in 4 older model Cadillacs end up with massive problems, and guess where my car falls into? That’s right, massive problems. I’ve had to get the alternator replaced, new battery, new O2 sensor, fix a blown head gasket, and now it has an oil leak. And not just any oil leak, oh no, it’s the rear main seal. That means the engine has to be removed to fix it, and removing the engine is at least $1,000. My car is work $2,100. See the problem? I’m attempting some temporary fixes, but that’s all they are, temporary. If I can get it down to a minor leak, then I’ll be okay. But if it stays this horrible, I’m screwed. So I’m doing emergency commissions. I’m either going to have to pay for a repair, or a new car, so any amount of money I can get will be helpful at this point. Literally anything at all is better than the situation I’m in. Will NOT draw: Rape, incest, moderate to heavy gore Will draw: Just about anything else. If you’re unsure, just ask. I’ll let you know. Prices: Pencil sketch: Starting at $3 Digital sketch: Starting at $5 Digital lines: Starting at $8 Digital lines with flat colors: Starting at $10 Digital art with background: Starting at $20 (this is because it takes me a great deal more time to do) ~~Feel free to look through my gallery, or ask if you have any special requests. Message me here or send a note if you’re interested. I really need all the help I can get.~~

my partner tried to call me a sweetheart the other day but he misspelled it and I read it as “sweetbeard” and then I decided that this is what dwarf couples call each other

so, naturally, here are two dwarves on a date

Very important