Note to self:

Bawal basta-basta kiligin.

Bawal mag bigay ng meaning sa mga bagay-bagay na nangyayari between the both of you, unless stated and otherwise proven e kailangan pa ding pag-isipan ng maigi.

Madali mahulog, mahirap masaktan.

Reminder to all the girls out there.

You are far more worthy than rubies and diamonds.

You are precious.

You are beautiful.

You are important.

Just being you is enough.

Minsan

Minsan hindi sapat ang pag-iyak upang maibsan ang sakit.

Minsan mas kailangan ang pagtanggap sa katotohanan para matulungan ang sariling bumangon.

Minsan mas kailangan na piliin na humakbang palayo sa kahapon kaysa ang manatili doon.

Minsan mas kailangan bumangon kaysa ang manatiling nakalugmok.

Minsan mas kailangang tulungan ang sarili para maging masaya muli.

Minsan pagbigyan din ang sariling magpahinga sa hinanakit.

Minsan kasi wala nang naitutulong ang iyak.

Minsan ay turuan ang sarili na mas piliing ngumiti kaysa ang lumuha.

Hello sa mga kaibigan kong nagka-jowa lang, nakalimot na.

Andito pa din ako kung need ninyo.

Nagbabalik loob sa tumblr. Isang taon din akong nanahimik.

Him

I have this guy friend.

We have a biking group. That is where I met him.

From there, we had small talks.

Then small talks turned to regular chat.

Then regular chat turn to texting.

Which turned to hanging out.

It was just strolling.

Then turned to a cup of coffee.

He even treated me on my birthday.

I actually thought it was a date.

And then we cleared that it was not.

Then it continued.

Us hanging out.

Just the two of us.

I enjoyed his stories,

his theories,

his jokes,

and so he is with mine.

We shared a few laughs,

and a few personal stories of our own.

It was like I was having the one guy friend

I was looking for.

Someone whom I can confide with

I can laugh with

and just hangout.

But little did I know

that it was a very different story with him.

I haven't had the slightest idea

that he was already falling for me.

It was not my intention,

it was not in my plan.

And so one night he took the courage to say

that it is me whom he like.

I was speechless,

I was quiet.

It took me a week

to find my words to response.

And I said, "I'm sorry"

And that's when it ended.

No more chitchat.

No more laugh.

No more stories.

No more hangouts.

It was like I missed a big part of me.

Then after a month I saw him again.

I was to deliver him his order from my friend.

He has no option but to talk to me.

I was excited,

anxious even.

I wanted to hangout with him again.

To spend time like we used to.

I wanted the friend

that I spend time with to come back.

But all I got was,

"Sige salamat ulit. Alis na ako"

And then he rode his bike away,

without even looking back.