Birthday party time !!!

My tattoo means everything to me

I lost myself...

I lost myself

The pain in me grew so strong

I almost lost my sense of right and wrong

I opened the bottle and never looked back

Drink it down until I crash and have an anxiety attack

  I lost myself

But I gained something beautiful

I gained friendships that are so irrefutable

I lost friendships that were toxic

Threw them away when I realised they were demonic

  I lost myself

I don’t want any fair weather friends

I only want relationships that truly transcends

Into something real, something so true

To the rest of them I have to bid them adieu

  I lost myself

Many years ago, in many different ways

I was missing the love, I was missing the praise

From my family, from my friends from the people I loved

I lived my life in shame, feeling all shades of unloved

  I lost myself

But you see, you are only as strong as you want to be

You can go to the bottle, to pills or self-harm but we can all agree

That is no true way to survive to live this life

You have to find something that gives you internal drive

  As much as I did lose myself

I will prove to oneself

That I am okay

When I find the old me I will just throw her away

  I lost myself

I lost the person I wanted to be

But that is okay you see

Because it has just been adjusted

I will be happy with me rather than be very disgusted

  Because I am finding a new me now

I will come out of this depression stronger somehow

Because I need this, I deserve this

All of the criticism I hope to be able to dismiss

  Because I am worth it, even if I don’t see it

I will give myself a chance, every single little bit

I will push through this, I will make it through

I won’t let this bitch kill me in regards to

  My depression, my anxiety it will never hold me hostage

Even though sometimes fighting can be so exhausting

I will continue to fight, to get to the bright side

And even if I lose this fight, at least I can say that I tried.

~Written by Sabrina~

Love my little baby tattoo :)

Sabrina Benaim - "Explaining My Depression to My Mother"

Changing medication is legitimately the worst

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