Adrienne Gertrude ‘Attie’ Dyserinck, 1876-1942
Sleeping Cat and kittens in a basket, n/d, pastel on paper, 31.9x40 cm
It’s weird to grow up in a family where you know you’re loved but you don’t feel loved. And then later in adulthood you understand how almost impossible it seems to cross that distance and let yourself experience closeness, how otherworldly love feels now and how love feels unbearable at times. You flinch when someone tries to wholeheartedly love you. And over and over you see so clearly how you cannot be loved unless it's from afar and love is mixed with that familiar sensation of distance and coldness.
when Florence Welsh said "What a thing to admit that when someone looks at me with real love I don't like it very much / Kinda makes me feel like I'm being crushed"
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Alex Dimitrov, "Darling"
Sunday Views. 35mm. Santa Cruz, CA. 2018
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things get better slowly. you’ll wake up and you won’t feel an aching dread in your chest, but feel lighter. you’ll start to notice little things that make you smile: sunlight, soft pyjamas, hot tea, biting into fresh fruit. you’ll seek out these things, and your life will get warmer and fuller. day by day. you may still have days where you can’t get out of bed, but they’ll be fewer - small dark spots in a world of colour. if things aren’t too good yet, please remember that recovery is slow. show yourself some kindness. you deserve it.
marlena by julie buntin
my hobbies include daydreaming about romance and loving the color pink
Satchel and school supplies, 1971. From the Budapest Municipal Photography Company archive.