@boonsweetie literally me
@tastygoldentaters yes!! Makes you feel so much less crazy
Hey gaf, hope you're living you're best life! Yesterday i found an old folder full of picture of your wrinkly cat while trying to make space in my pc. Do you have new(ish) pictures ?
Omg, I love that!! I will see what I have (and post tomorrow) but it will just be what mum has sent me since I've moved 😥
He's too big for his chair now 😭
@tastygoldentaters I did the opposite, which again, I didn't realise until a long time after it, but I went through a phase where I would test men but in a way that would almost make it impossible for them to pass. I would undress in a window where I knew a man could see me, then get mad and feel vindicated when he admitted to seeing me - not watching, but seeing. Right when I moved in with Ron I was getting something out of my car while his sister's husband was behind me and bent over too far in a dress. Bless him, afterwards he basically told me "don't do that because people might see too much". I was so thrown off and annoyed by his respectfulness at the time (before I realised what I myself was doing) hahaha
Fun* thing I learned in my latest session with my psychologist that I think other SA survivors might not realise just like I didn't.
*it's not that fun
I have truly impressive self esteem issues and have always considered myself the "ugly friend" something I have not managed to shake even after this realisation BUT. it was definitely significant for me to learn this.
When a man treats my friend as attractive, I consider it complimentary
When I perveive a man to see me as attractive, I consider it a threat
seems like an appropriate time to remember the rvb texts blog I ran and how much I've missed making those posts since I stopped however many years ago
I'm currently not up to properly writing all my feelings out about RT ending and this is my emotional capacity lmao
Anonymous asked:
Iirc you used to watch NCIS, yes? Did you know they did a trial short season of a Sydney spinoff? It was actually pretty good too
I did used to watch religiously, until I could no longer ignore the way they destroyed Tony's character.
That's surprising to me, that the Sydney one was good. For one thing, Aus TV to me is pretty consistently blech, and I guess for another I have like no faith in NCIS writers at this point haha
*builds a fort out of boxes o' hugs around you* 💜💜💜💜
thank you I need it
i got this in my activity and i was like "Oh no!!" and went to check out your blog to see what was happening in your life and i see it was about rooster teeth and was like "that was a deceptive preview"
OOPS sorry man haha
Just dropping by to say I'm fucking depressed about Funhaus
Considers googling self destructive habits but decides that wouldn't be very self destructive of me
@thunder-the-ranger-wolf this is incredibly sweet thank you so much
@rainydaydecaf this especially gets to me because it addresses a few worries of mine
First, that I very regularly deal with guilt over not being as active anymore. My tumblr and especially my Ace Fam got me through some of the hardest points of my life. Before I met Ron I was probably in one of the lowest points of my life ever and I genuinely wonder if I would be here today not only if I met him, but if I didn't have my online family there to begin with. Without Ace Fam but also just the online family in general I may not have managed to get to the point that I'm at now. I have never stopped being grateful for what the Ace Fam has done for me, but it has also made me very guilty about the fact that I'm barely online anymore.
I want to be consistently online still and be regularly interacting with everyone because not only do I miss everyone, I truly understand the importance of everyone who has ever interacted with me. But also now that I am doing so much better, I'm spending so much more time in the real world, which is so good for me... but so often now I feel I don't have the time to be online for anything else and it makes me upset because I love you guys, I have always loved you guys so much, and it scares me, not being so consistently around to connect with everyone.
I love everyone and though I know I am still constantly changing, every single one of you has effected my personal growth and will continue to do so.
What about the other way? What are some things you're into now that he was into when you met?
Like, hobbies, food, kinks 😂?
Ron and I (both very time challenged) figured out today we've probably known each other close to five years. We also agreed it's felt more like one year.
On an unrelated note I'm so in love. I'm in the type of love I genuinely thought wasn't real before I met him. I'm so lucky.