Posting Less
Hey Yall,
I know I dont talk with most of you guys so I thought I would let you know what's happening i g in life right now and why I've decided to pull back from tumblr from a while.
I started my Genetics PhD 3 years ago and it's been actual hell. My physical health went to shit literally on Day 1, I ended up working for an emotionally abusive mentor for a year, and I'm now in a lab where I'm working on things completely out of my wheelhouse.
Now, I'm having to finally confront the fact that I can't just let life happen to me, I have to be in control. In control of time, in control of my energy, in control of myself. What ice been doing up until now is essentially showing up and expecting everything to fall into place. So I've been half assing (1/4 assing?) my work, my physical health, my relationships, and my mental health because I didnt want to expend the energy to make them all work. And it's not working.
So, what I'm doing now is trying to grow the fuck up and be in charge of myself. And a big issue for me has been my escapism. I escape from my day through facebook, manga, dumb phone games, and in this case, tumblr.
I need to be stricter with myself and to do so, I'm going to be deleting the tumblr app off of my phone to prevent myself from getting caught up in reblog spirals moving forward. Maybe someday my shit will be together enough that I can come back but for the foreseeable future, I will not be in here.
So long and thanks for the all the likes!