Chaos under Construction

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Our dogs will be five years old February 1st, . Honey, Ginger, and Nutmeg are all Golden Shepherds (half German Shepherd half golden retriever). They are possibly, the reason we still are around. They follow us everywhere and run with us in the field and woods. They all look great but require daily brushing because of the dense coat they all have. 

We hope for another five to eight years with them. The two girls are boss with Honey being top dog and the boy Nutmeg, seems to be a follower. He is the most affectionate though. Ginger has a white line down her nose that is dark all over her face but all gold lo her body. Honey is dark on the face and gold on the body. And Nutmeg is all gold and white. 

They have settled on the rugs near the feet. Trying to maneuver around the room is a large dog obstacle course. They are what makes this house home.   

#our dogs#I found vet paperwork to tell us how old they were#2023
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raychleadele

“Why did you follow this person ? uwu”

I’ve been here for fourteen years, do you think I remember? I don’t know who any of these people are anymore. I don’t know why they’re on my dash. I allow them to stay because they haven’t pissed me off enough to unfollow them yet. “Why did you follow this person?” I’m not sure I ever did. They’re just part of my ecosystem now.

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Below freezing outside. Supposed to get 3 to 6 inches of snow this weekend with winds up to 20 mph.

I hate winter.

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The urge to go back is real fucking strong. People avoid me, leave me alone.

But nothing can make the heart going into overdrive faster than looking around and not remembering why you're there, how you got there, where you are, and a miriad of other questions come rapid fire into the brain.

But you can't ask. You can't speak. You don't understand the language.

You find a parking receipt in the cut off jean's pocket, keys, wallet, but no phone. You wander around the beach and the rocks until the key makes a horn beep. It takes hours and hours.

Stopped sweating. water. There's water in the truck. dizzy, sunburnt, the face is almost unrecognizable in the rearview mirror. Cut off jeans, a t-shirt, and bare feet. When was your last shower?

When was your last meal? Is it safe to drive? You know you are more south because of the sun and so you head north. Stop at the first gas station, fill up, buy water and bread.

Drive north, find a sign for a main highway and drive north.

Border guards. you find a whiteboard and marker in the truck to answer questions. Find a passport that is almost but not quite expired in the glove compartment after frantic searching. Slight panic about the knife on your back until you realize the sheath is empty. Brownsville seems like a familiar place. The brain is still not quite online.

Drive north, arrive during the night. Shower, long shower, oiled hair to attempt to de-tangle it. Re-shower, slowly comb it and rebraid it.

sleep 13 hours

#I don't know how long I was there#Had to go back and find the motorcycle#Dogs were happy to be home#I'm not so sure I am#20 hour or so drive from an island on the east coast of Mexico
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h0neywheat

hey friends, i made a uquiz! what season are you?

there are 8 different results all with positive descriptions!

*disclaimer: i'm from america so these mainly describe northern hemisphere seasons and how I experience them, but i hope that doesn’t take away your enjoyment of this quiz!

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ruffboijuliaburnsides

This is lovely but I'm p sure sadly nothing like me

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ainawgsd

early autumn

the first word that comes to mind is: cozy. there’s something about your presence that is very comforting to those around you. you’re easy to talk to and regardless of how much you talk during conversations, you’re a wonderful listener. you probably show your love through quality time with others. you remind me of the various shades of oranges and reds that decorate the deciduous trees in autumn, the babbling of a creek deep in the woods, and the smell of fresh baked snickerdoodles.

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chaos-under-construction

late autumn

the first word that comes to mind is: mysterious. you’re probably the coolest one in your entire friend group, let’s be honest. you seem like the type of person that knows how to accessorize perfectly (or absolutely has no clue but still looks good regardless) you seem very in touch with your own surroundings and your friends tend to look to you for advice. you remind me of the chocolatey browns and deep purples of a night sky that is speckled with gold and silver stars, the sound of leaves crunching under leather boots, and the smell of coffee brewing.

#no clue for fashion
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deconstructingmychaos

It was strange, remembering my dead this week. It wasn't the overwhelming devastation It used to be. It was more of a empty loneliness.

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chaos-under-construction

I guess I just stopped living in the past. Not that I call this living. We exist in a lonely space waiting for time to pass.

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ryan-sometimes

I think it's so funny how we bred JOBS into dogs. I have two shih tzus and they were bred to be lap dogs. All they care about is looking cute and cuddling with people. Meanwhile my grandma has a border collie and that dog needs to feel so useful all the time, he acts like he will pass away if he doesn't have a job to do constantly

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halomancer

On one hand this is extremely fucking funny, but on the other hand, it really boggles my mind how many people punish their dogs for just… doing the thing they were bred to do.

Your husky isn’t “hyperactive”, it’s bred to pull sleds for 8 hours straight and you have it in a 400 sq ft yard.

Your English sheepdog isn’t “pushy”, it’s bred to herd sheep, and you have neither to space nor the herd to allow it.

Your terrier isn’t “nippy”, it’s bred to kill rats and your hamster looks a hell of a lot like one.

Your Catahoula isn’t “mean to animals”, it’s bred to hunt any and all animals smaller than it, and you didn’t acclimate it to your cat.

Your Lhasa Apso isn’t “yappy”, it’s bred to bark at any tiny noise and alert watchmen to intruders

Like Jesus Christ, if you can’t provide an environment where your dog can’t fulfill its literal life purpose, maybe?? Don’t get that dog??? And if you do, maybe know the breed characteristics so you can redirect those traits into more constructive outlets????

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lemonsharks

Both your most common doodle's parts (labra and golden) want to hunt and retrieve water birds so the best suggestion I can give y'all is congratulations on your new duck hunting hobby.

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queerb

tags from @gnarlystarships because YEAH

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chaos-under-construction

This is why my three Golden Shepherds go with me to run, patrol our land and our neighbor's land. They also enjoy the large creek to play and swim in.

#dogs#they want to hunt#patrol and protect#swim
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notanothermultiblog-deactivated

You might not want to hear this but people with anger issues and/or violent impulses need social accommodations. And no by accommodation I don’t mean walking on eggshells around them, actual accommodations for people with these issues comes down to giving them a space away from what’s triggering them to process their emotions and calm themselves down same as what kind of accommodations people who get sensory overload or just any kind of overwhelmed. There is no moral value to having anger issues or violent impulses, people with them are deserving of accommodation the same as everyone else.

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psychoticallytrans

I had severe anger issues growing up, and the only way I was ever taught to deal with them was deep breathing. For some reason, deep breathing just triggers me to get angrier. But it’s the only coping skill I ever got taught for it. Here’s a few better ones.

  • Go and exercise. Get all of that energy out and away from the people you love.
  • Get a hang of when you’re winding up to a rage and learn to tell people that you need to step away. I will warn you that the first time that someone refuses to let you go once you learn this skill will spook the hell out of you if you don’t have a backup skill, so figure out ahead of time what you’re gonna do if they won’t let you leave.
  • Learn to set boundaries. One of the best things I ever did for my anger issues was tell people that I can’t deal with people stealing food off my plate. Second best was when I’m mad, telling people not to touch me. I spook easily when I’m already angry.
  • Get a pack of pencils and if nothing is working, break one. Sometimes you really do need to break something in order to feel better, and pencils are cheap.
  • Don’t cook with a knife when you’re mad. If you get too much adrenaline, the knife can slip and hurt you.
  • If you have anger issues that pop up without any seeming reason and frighten you, I would strongly recommend going over the situation and over your mental health. If there’s anything consistent with a mental health condition or with something particular happening to trigger it, seek to eliminate the trigger or treat the issue. Depression, anxiety, trauma, you name it, it can probably present as anger issues under the right circumstances.

Some quick notes for people without anger issues that want to help someone who has anger issues:

  • Fear transmutes into anger really, really well if someone’s fear response is “fight”. One of my guesses for why so many men have anger issues is that we’re told we’re not men if we have any other response to fear. However, this issue is far from exclusive to men.
  • Don’t box people in when you’re arguing with them or soothing them. If someone is backed up against a wall and upset, then getting closer to them without permission is a bad call for your safety and for their soothing, because that removes the ability to get away from you. Ask before getting close. This goes double if someone is injured or otherwise vulnerable.
  • Teaching angry people that are distressed about being angry the pencil trick on the spot is really easy and works more often than you can think.
  • Respect people’s requests and boundaries. A lot of people think that some of the boundaries I set up are silly or that once we’re pals, they can ignore them. No, because a lot of my boundaries are related to trauma, and crossing them will trigger me and bring up my anger.
  • All of this goes for children with anger issues as well. I was a child with anger issues, and a lot of disrespect for my boundaries and needs was because my anger was dismissed because I was a child. Respect children’s anger.

Walking on eggshells is not and will never be a good way to treat anger issues. Recognizing that people with anger issues deserve to have their boundaries respected and to be treated like human beings is.

An end note: Anger issues are not the same thing as being abusive, because emotions are not abusive. Someone with anger issues can become abusive if they take them out on people, but so can someone with suicidal thoughts who takes them out on people. The issue is targeting another person in order to feel better, not having a mental health issue.

An end note for people with anger issues: It really can get better. You can find coping skills and perhaps meds that help cool you down and settle you. You can find people that will accept that doing that one weird thing spooks the fuck out of you, and will let you leave if you’re scaring yourself. You can gain control of yourself without shutting down emotionally. It’s achievable.

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chaos-under-construction

I run, work out, play metal on earphones loud enough to drown out my thoughts, and I will make one of the only noises I can. I growl and breathe. I can and will break things to stop me from breaking something valuable. Mostly I run. 

#anger issues#I'm better than I was#most of the time#fucking mute so don't tell me to use my fucking words#nightmares make me angry#getting those every fucking night
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nope, can’t take the fucking nightmares. Rather have a migraine. At least I didn’t punch holes in the wall with a migraine. holy fuck

#new med
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