Why am I stressed?

Is anyone else like me? I can never seem to lose that little tightness in the chest that tells me I am uptight about something.  Maybe it’s genetic, maybe it’s my job, maybe I’m just hopelessly wound tight.  Maybe it’s too much work, too much coffee, too much TV, Twitter, Facebook, Youtube, Reddit, Instagram, Insta-everything.  Maybe it’s too little rest, too little play, too little patience, too little exercise, too little yoga, too little time, too little of all the stuff that matters.   

I don’t know, but you really get a sense of how messed up you are when you’re on vacation.  You’re trying your hardest to relax and all you can do is freak about crap you can’t control.   You wake up at 2am and go for a run.  Man,  I’m gonna need a vacation after this vacation!  I’m really tired.  Is this normal?   

Maybe I’ll listen to some music!  Wait… music = work for me.  Like a doctor going home and doing some inoculations to relax.  That won’t work.  Maybe one more prayer. Or one more piña colada.  Or maybe both at the same time will do the trick!   Hmmm…. maybe I’ll just work even more and bury my head in the proverbial sand and hope for the best…. yup!  That’s better.  God help me!  (There’s that prayer I was talking about).  

Anyway,  here’s to calming the heck down!  Maybe even slowing down enough to see that life is really good!  I am blessed.  Now I just need to start to live like it.  Easy right? 

Love and peace @adamanders

glee Season 5 Reflections

In light of the upcoming glee finale I thought I would jot down my thoughts about what was probably the most memorable season of all for me. Unfortunately it wasn’t memorable for only good reasons….

It started out with the normal levels of excitement and anticipation only to come to a screeching, shocking, and devastating stop.  I remember being at home watching TV with my wife and getting a text that there were rumors Cory had died.  I knew in my heart that it was true.  I spent most of the night literally sobbing.  It hit me how close I had become to Cory over the years, how much we had shared, and how much we had grown and changed together.  I had spent countless days in the studio with him over the years.  I had lost a friend and brother.  It hurt. Then I thought of Lea and the rest of the cast and crew…it was too much…

As we tried to pick up the pieces and figure out how to move forward,  I felt a sadness and weight that was hard to shake.  Every song took on new meaning.  Every feeling and emotion heightened.  Nerves frayed.  We were creating through our grief.  We pressed on, if nothing else, because he would have wanted us to. 

I can honestly say that as I reflect on season 5, I believe it ended up as one of the best seasons we have ever done.  Although most of it was born of agony and pain, I am truly proud of what we did as a cast and crew.  The producers did a masterful job of navigating uncharted waters.  Of pulling everyone together.  Not to mention how beautifully the writers paid tribute to our fallen friend.  They found a way to carry him with us all year while helping us all to move forward.  

I would be lying if I said glee was the same.  Of course it isn’t.  But we still love this show and what it means to so many.  There is still some glee left in all of us to share with you…well if not in all of us…at least there is in me.  

Thank you all for your support this season and I can’t wait for season 6.

Xoxo 

@adamanders

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