It’s been a while since I posted anything... I’ve obviously watched the Supernatural finale and I ain’t doing so hot rn. My heart is utterly broken. This video I made pretty much sums up how I feel about Dean’s ending... And why I feel he deserved to find happiness in life and not in death. If you are out there and you’re struggling, please remember that you CAN find happiness, you CAN find peace in this life and you shouldn’t need to wait for it all to end. You are a survivor and you can keep going no matter what life pits you against. Dean deserved so much better. I am grateful to have followed the journey of such a beautiful character and I wish he’d escaped this fate.

Goodbye, Dean. I will love and remember you forever.

Re:  It was always gonna end like this for me | Dean Winchester [&15x20]

You are very welcome and thank you for watching. I literally cried the entire time I was making this. I thought I’d never finish it, it was really painful to put it together </3 :’(

cupiditiee said:

I feel like the only characters that didn’t change and remained true to who they were are Justin, Toni and Tyler. The rest disappointed me so much with their behavor towards Justin. It’s like, he suddenly stopped existing for them and I would have understood that for a couple of characters but NOT Clay, Jess & Zack. They all started caring when it was already too damn late. Justin could have been saved if they all cared when it mattered. Instead, he saw nobody trusted him or listened to him and he internalized everything and kept his illness a secret. He was slowly dying and didn’t say a word so that he wouldn’t be a burden. He basically shared Hannah’s fate. Remember what she said before she killed herself? 

“Some of you cared, none of you cared enough. I didn’t either and I’m sorry.” 

If you apply these words to Justin, they are completely true for him as well. I still can’t believe this happened. It’s so fucking unfair. I’m so SO sad. 

smokesforharris said:

These 2 are the couple I never knew I wanted! I never even considered this a possibility before S4, it caught me totally by surprise.

#JUSTINDESERVEDBETTER talk & 13 Reasons Why S4E10 thoughts

So ... I’ve already watched the series finale, did it right after episode 9 but it was hard for me to watch and write my thoughts simultaneously because I was ugly crying the whole freakin time. Thus, I’m posting this now. Haven’t cried this much in a LONG while. My heart is fucking broken. I’m gonna start by talking about my favorite character whom the show did SO. FUCKING. DIRTY. JUSTIN FOLEY DESERVED BETTER. (obviously, OBVIOUSLY, it was gonna be MY favorite character who gets screwed over and dies a horrible death, just my luck, why did I expect a happy ending, I don’t even know).

Justin was the most tragic figure of the show. Raised by a junkie mother who never gave a damn about him, sexually molested as a little kid by one of her many drug addict & violent boyfriends, he often went to school dirty and hungry because of the neglect. He never had a positive influence in his life. He only managed to do better with Bryce’s help (Bryce was a bastard but he did care about Justin in his own way, that’s for sure). 

After the events of S1 with Hannah’s suicide and the tapes and everything that happened with Jessica and Bryce, he left his abusive home and lived in the streets where he barely ever found food and what money he got from charity or the men who paid (and hurt him) to use his body, he gave to drugs. 

13 Reasons Why S4E9 Thoughts

Second to last episode ... here we go ...!

1)avksdjfvnsdkjfvnsdjfv Charlie waking up next to Alex and kissing him, I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2)Noooooooo T_T Justin looks sick ... He isn’t doing good ... BBY ;_; The Jensens love him, he should tell them he needs help ....... He doesn’t want them to spend any money on him ;_;

3)If Diego so much as TOUCHES Jess the wrong way, there will be BLOOD

4)Charlie’s suggestion to get everyone’s parents evolved by confiding in them and taking them on their side is pretty damn clever tbh!!

13 Reasons Why S4E8 Thoughts

1)???????????? Earth 2161???????? Bryce as a robot with a conscience working WITH Clay who leads a group of the resistance???? WHAT SHOW IS THIS?? :P (it looks great tho!!! xD)

2)Wow ... Tyler is a fucking hero for putting his life at risk and becoming an informant for the police on illegal guns trade ... I thought this was the case from the beginning but ofc the characters in the show could never suspect that because of his history. This kid really turned his life around for the better.They kinda owe him an apology now.

3)JUSTIN GOT ACCEPTED INTO COLLEGE!!!!!!!!!! SO PROUD OF MY SON <333333 Clay could have said a congrats or sth ... WTF dude ...

13 Reasons Why S4E7 Thoughts

1)Crap ... Clay ended up in a psychiatric hospital .. It was bound to happen ...

2)I was gonna say poor Clay for the “accident” on the hospital bed but then it was a trick so he could escape the hospital ... WHAT IS THIS KID THINKING.......... 

3)Clay asking Ani when she’s gonna stop running people’s lives....PREACH (altho her rewriting Clay’s essay and sending his application was actually a good thing)

4)Alex, STG, if you HURT Charlie’s feelings, I’ll SLAP YOU YOUR ASS

5)Clay is ... walking and talking like there’s someone there with him ... His mental health is deteriorating fast ...

13 Reasons Why S4E6 Thoughts

1)IS ZACK DEAD????? TELL ME IT AIN’T SO!!!!!!!!!!!!! :’OOOO Ok, NVM, HE’S ALIVE thank God, but Clay DITCHED him at the site of the crash????? WHAT?!?! HE COULD HAVE DIED, DUDE!!! Can’t blame Zack for telling Clay to stay away from him, he almost killed him.

2)Clay said he was in an appointment ... with his doctor, I guess, but his mom told the Dean of principle (I think that’s what he was called) that she didn’t know anything about that. What ...?

3) O_O What was that warning?!?! Is there actually a shooter in the school??? They said Code Red means it’s true!!! :O

13 Reasons Why S4E5 Thoughts

1)Oh man ... Clay going out jogging and ending up in front of Bryce’s house and the place where he was killed?? Not good ... And on top of that it seems he’s losing track of time ... How’s this all gonna go for him in the end ...

2)Is Clay taking drugs???????And trying to pin the positive test on JUSTIN????? OH HELL NAH, THAT’S ENOUGH!!!!!!! HE’S TRYING SO FUCKING HARD TO BE CLEAN AFTER REHAB, HE’S DOING WELL AT SCHOOL & SPORTS, HE WANTS TO GET IN COLLEGE AND YOU’RE JUST MESSING HIM UP, GODDAMIT!!!!!! I’m so damn GLAD that he at least has the coach to talk to, I can’t fucking believe this shit. When Justin said “I think no one believes in me”, I just started crying :’(

3)HOLD THE FUCK UP!!! Clay not only smokes weed at the party but when Justin shows up to tell him he’s there to look out for him and asks him why is he so pissed at him all the time, Clay tells him to fuck off. STOOOOOP. STOP!!! EVERYONE IS HURTING MY BABY AND I WON’T HAVE THAT SHIT!!! He’s done NOTHING wrong NOTHING and you’re all just pushing him so much that I am so fucking scared he’s gonna break. I feel HORRIBLE for what everyone is putting Justin though. He’s a recovering addict, doing the best he can to start his life over and stay clean and you’re treating him like garbage. ASSHOLES!!!!!!!!!

13 Reasons Why S4E4 Thoughts

1)Charlie talking in the unknown person’s funeral ... Is it ... Zack?? Fuck ... Why else would he have the football shirt on?? :S

2)”Anxiety is a motherfucker. Excuse my language but ... everything that’s out there is waiting to happen to you.” IF THAT’S NOT RELATABLE IDK WHAT IS ;_;

3)So ... the calls from Monty’s phone and the dummy were all a prank on Clay and all the jocks took part in it??? FUCK THOSE ASSHOLES. And Diego can go sit on a cactus.

13 Reasons Why S4E3 Thoughts

1) Is ... someone really calling Clay or is it all on his mind??

2)Jessica acting surprised when Alex refuses to go with her to the Valentine’s Day dance. I mean ... really?? She cheated on him, ditched him and ruined his allibi for the night Bryce was murdered, why would he say yes?!

3) Clay angering Zack on purpose so that he’d get punched ... This boy is gonna collapse or end up in a hospital, if he doesn’t I will be surprised.

13 Reasons Why S4E2 Thoughts

1)And the scene with the funeral continues ... It’s gonna be like that till episode 10, huh?? I’M STRESSED.

2)Man... those HORROR movie vibes?? SERIOUSLY CREEPY. Clay’s reflection smiling back at him reminded me of the movie “Truth or Dare”. *chills*

3)Is it me or has Clay lost a considerable amount of weight?? :S #worriedagain