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2018

Oh Heck I just skimmed over my long ass post about 2017 - my goal was to exercise regularly? Guess whomst is currently going to zumba classes twice a week? This bitch.

2017: recapping my life

Even though I'm not using tumblr anymore, I still want to post my end of year posts here. You can read about my 2016 here.

When we last left off, December 2016, I was at my parents house in recovery from surgery of a fractured vertabae. Let's catch up on what's happened since then.

Winter semester 2017 was a fucking haze of tears, loneliness, pain, and frustration. My dad said he didn't think I would actually go back to school for the semester. I tried to take 3 classes and an online class, but I got overwhelmed at the responsibility I had before me in my broken state and decided to go part time. *Shitty roommate voice* What do you even do all day with so few classes?

Well, Erin, miss future physicians assistant, I fucking collapse into bed after getting home from a two hour class because my back hurts so much. I spent the semester going to classes, doing homework, crying, and falling asleep to TAZ every single night. The mess that was Hannah clung to sanity via mcelroy podcasts. My doctor told me I could stop wearing my brace on Feb 14. With it off, I felt so, so fragile.

I started physical therapy with Dale like a month later. Torey was nice enough to drive me to nearly all my appointments. I started feeling better, bit by bit. Then the semester ended, and on the last day, I got sooo fucking drunk. I fuckin deserved it though. It was a sigh of relief.

Summer. Useless fucking lump. I didnt want to get a summer job because I was afraid of stressing my back out from standing at a register for 5+ hours straight. Thanks, America, for making all cashiers stand for no gotdamn reason. I did take a very easy online class though. Had my 21st birthday, dinner with family. Oh, I also took 3 driving lessons but did no more driving outside of that. One day.

Fall & new semester. I had one class that was just so, so stressful. I had planned to apply for a study abroad program for the summer but got overwhelmed and dropped the application. I did a little bit of tutoring but not as much as I had hoped. In November, Torey and I went to Chicago to see MBMBaM live. Finished the semester and now we're here. One semester to go until graduation.

One thing I worked on this year is asking for help. I'm at a point in my life where I know I need to start really becoming independant, but I need to also start recognizing the moments where it's truly okay to ask for a little help. It's hard to find a balance.

Anyway my one 2018 goal is to exercise regularly for the sake of my back. Thats it.