It’s funny how you revert back into old habits

I was 19 when it happened and now I’m 30 and it’s happened again but worse. I find myself doing things and feelings things like I did when I was 19

It’s really hard. Everyday is a challenge but I’m trying

A challenge not to crawl back into bed or leave. I don’t know what’s getting me through everything is a reminder. I’m barely eating and hardly sleeping.

I feel broken

I feel like I’m wasting away

Mentally and physically

This is fucked

I feel empty.

I feel worthless. I never thought I would feel this way again. I never thought someone would break me and my trust like this.

It eats me up - it’s hurts so fucking much. I’m not sleeping, barley eating and paranoid as fuck

I can’t do anything about it

You’re always in my dreams

Sometimes I want to reach out but I feel like it’ll bring chaos

This whole year has been a lot. It’s never stopped

Close to 6 months of this. I’m exhausted. I’m sad

I’m just having a low moment right now

I want to share what’s going on but then I don’t

I feel so alone and reckless