“You said you wanted to stay friends and I laughed through the cracks in my teeth because here’s the thing: we were never friends. we were in love the second we met, fucking on your best friends floor the first night you saw me. we were never friends I was the ocean and you were the moon, pulling at me until I drowned in myself and loved you forever. we were never friends we were husband and wife. we were married thousands of years before, in another life, in harder times, we died in each others arms. Like lovers, not like friends. we were never friends I couldn’t get your kiss out of my fucking head. we were never friends, we saw stars in each other’s eyes and lit match after match to relight them when they burned out. I couldn’t let you go. we were never friends, you never called me to “hang out” you showed up at my door and underneath my window to hold me in your arms until I melted. we were never friends, friends don’t make you fall in love and then leave because they like the sound of your begging, tear cracked voice. friends don’t kiss you over and over again until you can’t go a day without it and then cut you off and smile at you anyway. friends don’t break you just because their father left when they were little and it’s all they know. friends don’t want you dead, and you knew this would kill me.”

“ew why would u swallow”