@alice_grigoriadi
I do not feel a damn thing anymore, I’m so numb.
It’s considerably more lonely to be surrounded by people that love you but cannot understand you than it is to simply just be alone. It’s like this shroud I find myself constantly covered in that I did not ask for, shelter and warmth but to a suffocating level because the price to pay to have a relationship with family and friends is a mask of placament. I’m not homesick for a place, I’m homesick for understanding found in other bodies.
Being a young adult is so strange. You enter a coffee shop. The 20 year old girl waiting behind you cried all night because she just came to a new city for university and she feels so alone. That 27 year old guy over there works a job he is overqualified for, he lives with his parents and wants to move out but doesn't know what to do about it. That one 24 year old dude already has a car, a house, and a job waiting for him once he graduates thanks to his dad's connections. The 26 year old barista couldn't complete his higher education because he has to work and take care of his family. The 28 year old girl sitting next to you has no friends to go out with so she is texting her mother. That couple (both 25 years old) are married and the girl is pregnant. The 29 year old writing something on her laptop has realized that she chose the wrong major so she is trying to start all over. We are not alone in this, but we are actually so alone. Do you feel me
Clueless (1995) dir. Amy Heckerling
Turn on: When someone tells me how much I mean to them
When i was in middle school i was banned frm the twilight wiki bc i kept changing Edward’s photo to this
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