Can everyone please cross their fingers that when i get re-weighed in the morning it turns out that this was all just a big mistake and that my efforts have actually been worth something? Thanks and much love ❤ ❤
Anonymous asked:
what's up? :(
Basically I didn't manage to maintain my weight (i was actually so surprised and they've agreed to double check it tomorrow morning which they never do so they must be surprised too) so I've had my pass reduced and my discharge delayed and stuff. Starting to feel like i'll never leave here and it feels so outwith my control cause i've been doing everything thats asked of me and trying so hard and its just not working. Feel a bit hopeless and broken. Thank you for asking x
Please can this just be over? I'm so fucking done.
I just want this to be over. I'm so fucking done.
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This afternoon’s snack; yoghurt with a nectarine and a mini malt loaf
ooh is it a soreen loaf by any chance? I’ve been meaning to try those!
It is indeed - they're so good!
This afternoon's snack; yoghurt with a nectarine and a mini malt loaf
Aaaah you look so beautiful in your last selfie! Sorry, I couldn't hold it in. I'm so proud of you. Take care, and stay strong.
Bless you, thanks! And you too lovely :)
Your progress is incredible and you're a huge inspiration- well done for how well you're working, and I hope next week is equally good for you! xx
Thank you so much, i hope you have a wonderful week too! :)
Anonymous asked:
Your most recent selfie is absolutely beautiful! Even in the short time that i've been following you, you've progressed so much and you inspire me to recover everytime i see you update! :)
Thank you so much, this really means a lot to me :) have a great day!
Hello you! I hope today is a good day, a sunny day, a day that is peaceful for you. Sending my well wishes as always
Thanks shaely, and same to you!
This weekend has been a pretty nice one. On friday i got to go see my outpatient therapist who was soo pleased that i'm finally at my target weight. On friday night i went for a drink with my ex boyfriend/close friend which was really really nice actually, if a little confusing. On saturday morning i went to my first ever pilates class! It was really good and the instructor was helpful and adapted it to accommodate for my brittle bones. It feels so nice to actually be allowed to exercise and for my birthday my parents are paying for a fitness membership to last me until september when i'll be moving back to stirling. Last night it was my neighbour's 18th so we went round for a big party. It was kinda fun but i spent the whole night wishing i was able to join in with the food and the alcohol and the laughter but i'm just not there yet. This morning i went to a yoga class which was also pretty nice. Tonight i had quiche for dinner and it was the first pastry i've eaten in 2 years and i feel sooort of gross but also quite proud and my mum was ecstatic. It feels so weird trying to maintain my weight, for the last 3 years i've either been trying to lose or gain. I'm following my meal plan and trying to be mindful of exercise - i just hope i'm doing this right...
Your earliest selfies are absolutely gorgeous! You are becoming such a stunner :)
Thank you so much! I'm really struggling with body image at the moment but people are being very flattering (':
*sigh* its so difficult to eat properly when your sisters insist on making 'nice cream' and going to the gym. How is it fair that they can do that and if i do it its disordered? I also feel like they resent me so much for being ill - like if i freak out over something or use a disordered behaviour they pretty much stop speaking to me which only makes me feel worse. I feel bad cause i can't ask my whole family to change to accommodate me but home is really hard right now.
Anonymous asked:
I just wanted to let you know that your progress is both awesome and inspiring. I myself have been suffering with severe PTSD, and the anxiety has led to issues with my eating habits. Your updates are actually what inspired me to seek treatment. I saw that someone somewhere was getting better and overcoming the odds, and I wanted to do the same. I am not where I want to be yet, but hopefully I will be soon! Just know your journey is understood and applauded. You WILL get better, and so will I!
This made me so happy, thank you so much and congratulations on deciding to ask for treatment. You deserve it and it is so worth it. Lots of luck to you and thanks again for your message, i hope you're well and stay strong!
This week went pretty well - i got weighed on tuesday morning and i've reached my target weight! I'm now onto my maintenence meal plan and so long as ny weight remains stable for two weeks I'll be discharged a week on tuesday, the day before my 20th birthday, after 6 and a half months in hospital. I'm so excited/terrified. I got to come home after I'd seen the physio yesterday and don't have to be back till monday so i'm barely going to be there for my last wee while, but it'll still be amazing to be properly FREE.
I don't know how you discovered it. But bloody hell, tahini in rice pudding is amazing.
Yessss oh my gosh i know right?! I basically just used it in place of peanut butter - its good in porridge too!
You may have a ways to go before things feel easier, but you have come SO far Heather, don't discount your progress. Think of Uni, think of family, think of the things you love and value. Bit by bit you'll get a life put together without this illness. I believe in you. Also, remember you're going to tour me around Scotland and I'm going to tour you around the West Coast of B.C. so we gotta be well to do those things!
Thanks shaely, this is wonderful and you are so right. Recovery will be worth it and we can acheive that and yeah man canada would be amazing (': hope you're well xx