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For a while now I've been wanting to try painting over the Pillars of Creation photo taken by the Webb telescope.
When I was a kid I thought the earlier version looked like a bunch of dragons racing to the sky, and I think the new pic looks even more like it, so, here they are~
For reference, same crop of the photo down here:
This is SO stunning 😍😍
An older sketch (that I also used for my blog icon) of early cw Obi-Wan gifting Ahsoka a cloak post battle.
Really wish the clone wars delved more into their relationship, what with Ahsoka being assigned to Obi-Wan before Anakin.
what if jellyfish were just, like, really big. all the time
“What would you have done if Vasily hadn’t died or abdicated the throne?” Alina asks him once.
Here where it’s just the two of them, Nikolai has allowed himself to look just a hair less the perfect, polished king. He doesn’t tense at her question—he’s too disciplined for that—but she can see the uncertainty and guilt in his eyes when he turns to face her.
“Honestly? I’m not sure.” His voice is wry and tinged with an uncharacteristic bitterness. “I like to think I could have gotten him to abdicate of his own free will, but perhaps I’m still fooling myself. Vasily hated work, but he loved power and the appearance of it.”
—I’ll tell you how the sun rose (a ribbon at a time)
^^^
I find Nikolai so much more interesting (not to mention realistic!) when he’s continually perched on that knife’s edge. He’s a largely good guy, but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t take morally ambiguous actions. When do the ends justify the means, and at what point do you stop being “largely good” when your actions continue to get more and more morally dubious?
When your personal ambition is so deeply entwined with your desire to help your country, is it even possible to detangle the two? And what does it mean for a person if your most selfish desires are so tightly wound through your noblest intentions, and vice versa?
Nikolai is self-aware enough to know that he’s walking that fine line, and he’s a good enough guy to be bothered by it. Neither of these things will inherently stop him from crossing said line, though. It’s up to him to keep himself from sliding too far on that slippery slope of morally dubious actions. (And “too far,” of course, is deeply subjective.) To a lesser degree, it’s also up to the people around him, but that’s dependent on him listening to them—which is just another choice for him to make.
As you said, becoming ruler of a kingdom should only intensify your potential for making morally ambiguous decisions... as well as the magnitude of their consequences.
(As I think we may have discussed before, Nikolai abdicating the throne in ROW didn’t work for me—not for Nikolai and not for the story—but the worst part is that it could have if Bardugo had delved deeper into his character.)
Like Mal’s not-death, Nikolai being allowed to remain so untainted feels emotionally/intellectually dishonest. I get it, these are YA books, but Bardugo is the one who introduced these quandaries in the first place. And she even called the readers’ attention to them in that great scene between Alina and Nikolai in S&S that you mentioned!
*highlights and underlines these lines*
Exactly! The fun thing about Bardugo giving Nikolai narrative copout after copout is that we can explore the affect this would have on him. The Darkling kills Vasily for him. He’s conveniently able to privately exile his father. (Which has a lot more moral ambiguity packed into it than fandom typically acknowledges, IMO.) But what if it hadn’t worked out that way? He’ll never know what he’s really capable of, and if he lets himself think about it too much, it could easily eat him alive from the inside out. Just how much a “monster” is he? And how much more of a monster is being King making him?
I wish Bardugo had engaged more deeply with the monstrous aspects present in Nikolai as a person—his internality and interiority, the choices he makes and the costs he considers acceptable—as opposed to him having a literal monster in him thanks to the Darkling. (Or, you know, both. Which is what I think she was trying to go for, but the metaphor didn’t work for me, since the monster seemed so disconnected from Nikolai himself.)
ANYWAY! Thank you so much! I always love reading your thoughts.
One of the fun (and tricky!) parts of this fic is trying to get Nikolai’s headspace through while writing solely in Alina’s POV. Because Nikolai does open up to her—canonically, he opens up to her quite a bit—but that doesn’t mean he talks about everything. Or that he’s always aware of everything going on in his head. The same is true of Alina, of course, but we have the benefit of actually being inside her head.
Aster and goldenrod season.
ykno the thing about poetry is that 99% of it is bullshit and the other 1% will cut you like a material knife, and for every person that 1% is a different section of the whole. this is probably true about all art.
“What would you have done if Vasily hadn’t died or abdicated the throne?” Alina asks him once.
Here where it’s just the two of them, Nikolai has allowed himself to look just a hair less the perfect, polished king. He doesn’t tense at her question—he’s too disciplined for that—but she can see the uncertainty and guilt in his eyes when he turns to face her.
“Honestly? I’m not sure.” His voice is wry and tinged with an uncharacteristic bitterness. “I like to think I could have gotten him to abdicate of his own free will, but perhaps I’m still fooling myself. Vasily hated work, but he loved power and the appearance of it.”
—I’ll tell you how the sun rose (a ribbon at a time)
Alternative readings are good, I say, while grinding my teeth because I don’t like this particular one
It makes for a healthy fandom ecosystem to have a variety of takes, I say, while halfway to seethingly daydreaming how I would carpet bomb this take out of existence if I could.
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Living in Ohio is just like living in the Riverlands, I think
I don’t have any mobile phone network in or around my farm, but I can get some spotty reception if I pace around the woods for a good while. So now when I want to send or receive a text, and it’s too cold or dark to go outside and walk aimlessly for half an hour, I attach my phone to Pandolf’s collar and send him out in the forest. Usually when he comes home after taking my phone for a walk the text is successfully sent. He’s like those rescue mountain dogs with a little barrel of whiskey round their necks, but the millennial version.
If the chapter is mostly done can we see some of it 🥺🥺
AFDHFHFD sure! I’ve been gnawing my arm off over nikolina atm so I guess here’s a slightly longer romance scene
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Nikolai is working at his desk. He looks up at her approach sharply but his expression warms. And through her own swarm of worries, Alina thinks that he might genuinely be pleased to see her.
“Do you mind me interrupting?” she asks hesitantly. She already feels calmer here, or like she could be calm. In this room, with the lamps lit, and mundane work to be done.
“Not at all. Though I think I’m too tired right now for a continuation of our earlier debate.”
“Shall we call it a truce?”
“So you’ve realized my argument is stunningly correct and have come to praise my brilliance?”
She snorts.
“Couldn’t sleep?” he asks and she shakes her head. “Neither can I, or well I haven’t really tried.”
“It’s late,” she says, drifting closer. There are dark circles under his eyes and for a moment she wishes she had Genya’s ability to simply wipe them away with a touch. Instead she traces her thumb lightly over his cheek, and marvels at the tension draining from his face.
“I don’t think I could stand to be still long enough.”
“Then come to bed with me,” she says, only a little coyness to her answering smile.
This catches his attention. “Have you finally succumbed to my seductive charms?”
“Perhaps.” She leans down to brush her lips against his, resting her hand on his, taking the pen away. She feels a sudden pang of fondness for these hands, scars and all, though he might hate them. She holds his palm to her cheek, the warmth of it chasing away the Darkling’s touch.
hey i know that i dont talk about it a lot on here but this blog is pro masking. official govt and world organizations ending the health emergency doesn't mean covid is over. long term organ damage happens w every infection. the chances of long covid increase w each infection. we are facing an ever evolving infectious disease with no institutional protection. respirators protect you and others, please mask up!
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as air quality worsens each year during fire season here's a reminder that n95s also help protect against smoke
if you live so close to the fires that even indoors is smokey an air purifier is a good investment. you can build a high quality purifier yourself with a box fan and filters
its going to get worse every year so we need to start thinking now about how we protect ourselves as climate change threatens our health. no one is coming to save us so we all need to step up and start making plans to protect our communities from disease and air pollution.
my air quality is in the red today so im reblogging this again. get some masks, tape a filter to a box fan, stay inside if you can and limit activity as much as possible.
A low, sweet voice filtered through the noise of the storm, for a moment, he wondered if it was his mother, he wondered if this time death would be different, perhaps he’d hear the lullaby she never had the chance to sing.
Matilda (movie) remake where Trunchbull looks like one of those hyper feminine bleach blonde Republican women you see on talk shows as the token girl/eye candy. And then Miss Honey is a soft-hearted, handy, tie-wearing Butch.
It is so so important that Miss Honey is also fat.
