" Mostly because if men had all the painful stuff, they wouldn't be able to handle it." She chuckled, rubbing her back and rocking her like she was little again. Ash closed her eyes, taking deep, slow breaths. " I love you, Sophie. And I promise, it's not all painful."
It didn’t take long for Danny and Joey to return to the house, the elder of the two clearly having given the younger a severe talking to, judging by the redness in Joey’s eyes and the clear nerves evident on his face.
Danny grunted as he shuffled up behind his fiancée, who was facing away from him in bed that night. He moved in to spoon her, pulling her gently into his bare chest and pressing gentle kisses to the back of her neck.
“… hey… I know we made sure Soph is okay… but are you okay…?”
She’d been through this before with Clementine. But Clementine had been with her boyfriend for a year before they did anything, and it had been in private, fully safe, and when she was eighteen.
“… talk to me, buttface…”
Ash took a deep breath, leaning against him before letting it out slowly. " When my dad found out that I was having sex.... he got drunker than I'd ever seen him. He attacked me, tried to rape me and told me that I was nothing and if i wanted to be a whore then he'd show me." she had curled tighter into herself, taking a deep breath before rolling over. " I swore I would never do that to my kids. If I had any cause, I wasn't sure that I wanted any." She ran a hand over her face.
" I won't say that I wasn't angry or disappointed that they didn't wait. Or that Sophie didn't just come in here to get condoms. But I didn't do what my father did. I didn't rage at her, or make her uncomfortable about it for longer than she needed to be." She sighed. " I just wish she had waited until she was ready and sure. And that Joey had been smarter or more insistant about the condom." She sighed again. " But I really dont have room to talk."
Danny sighed and just nuzzled her head, holding her to his chest and opting to let her do whatever she needed to in order to let out whatever she felt.
“Considering I you looked like an overfilled Twinkie the first time we banged, we really don’t have any room to discipline ‘em on that front…” He agreed, letting out a quiet, sad chuckle. He looked down at her and bonked her forehead, offering a gentle smile of reassurance. “But you’re in your thirties… we’re both legal… And up until we started ‘not-not trying’ to get pregnant, we were pretty goddamn religious about using protection.“
He was right, of course. They had been almost military precision when it came to condoms or Plan-B.
He pulled her close again, hand trailing up her back. “You handled it so well… you’ve given her the tools and the knowledge to take care of herself. All you can do now is trust her to be smart, and to support her if anything goes wrong.”
‘Plus’— Danny thought with a smirk — ‘the videos of childbirth I made Joey watch will probably have him wrapping up twice to make sure they avoid it.’
She sighed, closing her eyes. " I know." She said, running a hand over her face. " I just want to protect her, and I swear, if Joey pulls some shit again, I'm going to beat him to within an inch of his life."
She cuddled into him, closing her eyes. " at least Lee wasn't here. I have no doubt he would have flipped his lid. Injuries or not."
Danny just flinched at that last comment.
It wasn’t that he was uncomfortable with her having an amicable relationship with her ex, but… it felt a little skeevy.
They were getting married soon, after all. Little over four months, all told. But still he couldn’t help but feel like an outsider of sorts — like as soon as Lee came home (something, again, he was so fucking happy for he could cry with relief) their relationship would become a lesser priority.
But he had to suck it up for her. He had to. After all wasn’t marriage about give and take?
He could put up with it. For her. For their family.
Unfortunately it was easier said than done. Surely enough, Lee pushed himself to get better quicker and their shorter time frame was something that came true against all odds.
Danny yawned lightly as he woke, only a month after Lee had come home, before turning to look at the woman beside him with a gentle smile.
He checked his watch, grimacing at the fact he’d woken up way too early for work but way too late to go back to sleep, before once again starting to smirk.
He grunted and scooted over, gently wrapping his arms around her waist and purposefully pulling her back to his chest, kissing at her neck.
Since Lee had come home it had been different to say the least. Their time revolved around nothing except the kids, Lee, and Work. The baby they’d been trying for had instantly gone onto the back burner, and their sex life was immediately ousted in place of getting as much sleep as possible.
He smirked, gently kissing at her neck and pressing himself to her, chest flush to her back and his… morning situation very much so evident.
He waited until he could feel her start stirring before continuing, leaving longer and hotter kisses to her skin. “I ever tell you how beautiful you are on a morning…?” He muttered against her.