So yeah 2 year hiatus

ive been gone a long time. a lot of shit has changed. and honestly, this tumblr isn’t worth rebuilding to suit who this new person is, you know? so much about me is different now and ive been gone such a long time, that it feels more correct to make a new tumblr account and start fresh. 

and it’s weird, because in those two years, I:

-fell in and out of love for the first time

-lost my virginity/took someone else’s (same person)

-graduated high school

-started college

-got off meds, and am needing to get back on

- got my first job 

-am having to rebuild almost every facet of my life now

and its almost like not deleting this account, which i wont be doing, and now making a new account makes it feel like im ignoring all of those huge things that have happened. 

but then i realize that im not. that i cant ignore those things, because they literally have made me who i am now. im not the same person that ran this blog, not by a long shot. so there is no ignoring those changes, because they are forever a part of me and are forever relevant. not posting about those things in the time ive been away does not make them less real or less potent. 

point being, this will be my last hurrah on this tumblr. Ill never delete this blog, because of what it represents in terms of my past. but this new tumblr will sort of be a representative of my new present and future, you know?

at least until i decide to pull the same hiatus horse shit again. 

but until then.

come on aboard the hot mess train at caiheylee.

Bye guys, or in some cases, hello again.

Stay thirsty, my friends.