It’s quiet car rides without Led Zeppelin blaring through the car speakers.
It’s too many salads and no greasy, “talk-with-your-mouth-full”, burgers.
It’s seven tumblers of whiskey, poured out to drink alone.
It’s stitching up wounds with his own shaky hands and an old pocket mirror.
It’s a smooth-running laptop and no anime-porn on a frozen screen.
It’s waking up to the sound of silence instead of a shower running.
It’s being called “Sam” instead of “Sammy”
It’s feeling small and alone in a world too big for just one.
It’s quiet nights alone in bed with nothing but his thoughts.
It’s having no one around to tell him to relax and stop thinking.
It’s missing bad movie puns and too-old inside jokes.
It’s a life without his big brother, his hero, his rock.