someday this pain will be useful.

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you see things in life, and you’ll be surprised  what  you see. life - you’re whole life is changes.  you  go  through changes in your life. one second you  got it made, next second you’re down in the dumps. & it goes back and forth throughout your whole life.  one  second  you  got the most beautiful girl in the world, the next second you don’t even have a girlfriend any- more. this is what you have to go through, this is life …

                               & it’ll never end.

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        ❛ New rules or not, you would still have lost. ❜  He should not bait his fellow former initiate, now that they stood on uneven ground. Now that Eric might wield the force of  l e a d e r s h i p  against him. But the very thought of Eric’s plan for Initiation left his stomach churning, and he could not help the words, bitter though they sounded. ( He had stepped down. He had condemned them all to this. )

        ❛ I have my orders, Eric. I’ll follow them.  Grudgingly, and with as many evasions and as much half-obedience as he could manage, yet…

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    “ try and stick to them this time .”

repetition was a peeve that made the leader’s fuse ever so slightly shorter than it already was. this man, in theory, was a bomb that is capable of unlimited destruction. even it’s vessel had a hard time holding in such rage, disgust, and tried patience. four was an enabler to this violence      hate only built upon aged hate. 

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          “it’s a kind of syrup.” her mom drank it a lot, but crybaby’s not nearly so bad. she just wanted to see what it would do to her. so far, nada, zip, zero, zilch. she hasn’t forgotten anything. maybe that’s why mom killed dad and the slut — to get away from the memories. “some people drink it with dinner.”

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    “ you’re not good at taking hints      i don’t really care about this guessing game .”

eric hadn’t a single drop of nostalgia because there wasn’t any memories to call upon. no parents, or any family for that matter ; Just his own destruction entangled with torturous experience.

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she laughs, shaking her head at him. it’s a pointed laugh, sharp, sexy – it was the kind of laugh that she reserved for when she needed to be strong and confident. the kind of laugh that made it seem as though she was laughing at them. and maybe she is. “ well, you’d think so with how pale you are. i think that it’s probably best though, if you were to go out in the sun, you’d probably BLIND whoever was with you.” 

but, in all honesty, finnick’s narrowly missed having her skin tinted gold. already tanned from her hours spent outdoors in the sun, her stylists thought it might be best to keep her as is – she was already attractive enough, apparently (you know, once you factored in the figure enhancing surgeries). 

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     “ okay       good  .”

since eric wasn’t the type full of kindness, he would of preferred to hurt those around him. after all, the world might as well live without eyes - people were already blind to the tragedies all around. the stylists of panem made sure to never touch the brute from two, leaving him pasty and horrifying enough to take a staring role. bodily markings were permanent, ink adorned his neck to remind the districts of his ranking      more importantly     kills.

sometimes, it was exceptionally difficult to absorb the happiness around the career - sometimes eirc allowed a very small smile slip through.                      “  steal any secrets today?”

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      the melody that leaves her lips is a simple one. an old song.       the quality of her voice is crisp and clear, and echoes softly       off the stony walls of the kitchen.

      ❛ I know it’s gotta go like this,                      I know,                            hell will always come before you grow. ❜

      but it cuts off the instant she registers another presence in       the kitchen. she was just cleaning up, but the icy aura drew       her away from her detachedness. toes pivot so she’s facing       him while her hands wipe themselves off on her apron.

                              ❛ ERIC.                                      -——’s there something i can do for you ? ❜

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     “   personally, no. i’d rather not be roofied   .”

focus hadn’t remained upon the girl but for a mere second, someone such as eric hadn’t any need to care about those walking around him. although it was unfortunate that she of all people were to be handling the consumables this evening, 

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      “          no offense to you   .”

leadership privileges allowed the tattooed brute to walk past the aides and into the kitchen itself to make something if he so felt the reason to. amity was heavily frowned upon on behalf of the ex-erudite ; not to mention, because of that faction, the superior had greatly limited specific indulgences. carbs, in particular.

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Halsey Sentence Starters

  • “I need them.”
  • “I sold my soul.”
  • “S/He told me I was holy.”
  • “Make no sound.”
  • “This is what I live for!”
  • “I’m helpless.”
  • “I’m running out of time.”
  • “I let him climb inside my body.”
  • “I don’t belong to no city, don’t belong to no wo/man.”
  • “You tripped on LSD.”
  • “I find myself reminded to keep you far away from me.”
  • “Oh, baby, I’m begging you to save me.”
  • “Well, lately, I like ‘em crazy.”
  • “I’m searching for something that I can’t reach.”
  • “I like the sad eyes, bad guys, mouth full of white lies.”
  • “I swear, I hate you when you leave.”
  • “Where’d you go?”
  • “What happened to the soul that you used to be?”
  • “Got a million numbers, and they’re filling up your/my phone, boy/girl.”
  • “I’m off the deep end.”
  • “I love him/her, but I know I’m gonna leave him/her.”
  • “All we do is think about the feelings that we hide.”
  • “Would it really kill you if we kissed?”
  • “I’m high on legal marijuana.”
  • “I found God.”
  • “I found the Devil.”
  • “Now we’re lost somewhere.”
  • “I’ve got a lover.”
  • “A love like religion.”
  • “I’m such a fool to pay this price.”
  • “He told me that “I’d never”.”
  • “I found a savior.”
  • “He’s off to pay his crimes, and he’s got no time for mine.”
  • “I’m unforgiven.”
  • “Make a compromise.”
  • “I’m sick of all these people talking.”
  • “[pronoun/name]’s neck is open wide, begging for a fist around it.”
  • “I’m already choking on my pride, so.”
  • “There’s no use crying about it.”
  • “You should probably keep your pretty mouth shut.”
  • “Do you remember the taste of my lips?”
  • “I remember when my father put his fist in the wall that separated the dining room.”
  • “I won’t look back.”
  • “You’re only happy when your sorry head is filled with dope.”
  • “You’re a masterpiece.”
  • “I’m pulled apart at the seams.”
  • “I’ve only felt religion when I’m with you.”
  • “You’ll never be forgiven.”
  • “You put a fever inside me.”
  • “I’ve been cold since you left.”
  • “I’ve got a girl/boyfriend now.”
  • “I’m hoping you can save me.”
  • “You’ve got a fire inside, but your heart’s so cold.”
  • “I’ve done some things that I can’t speak.”
  • “You weren’t looking at me.”
  • “My mind’s like a deadly disease.”
  • “Please stop, you’re scaring me.”
  • “I can’t help this awful energy.”
  • “You should be scared of me.”
  • “I’m empty.”
  • “I must confess [insert here].”
  • “We’re the underdogs.”
  • “I’m in this world alone.”
  • “I’m a believer.”
  • “They can throw their stones.”
  • “I just wanna feel your lips against my skin.”
  • “This is right where it begins.”
  • “I promised myself I wouldn’t let you complete me.”
  • “Is there somewhere you can meet me?”
  • “I’m sorry, but I fell in love.”
  • “I didn’t mean to fall in love.”
  • “You’re looking like you fell in love.”
  • “Could we pretend that we’re in love?”
  • “Would you bleed for me?”
  • “You look so cool.”
  • “Let’s cause a little trouble.”
  • “You make me feel so weak.”
  • “I bet you kiss your knuckles right before they touch my cheek.”
  • “I’ve got my mind made up, this time.”
  • “Would you lie for me?”
  • “Cross your sorry heart and hope to die, for me.”
  • “Don’t forget me.”
  • “I wouldn’t leave you if you’d let me.”
  • “S/he’ll never love you like I could.”
  • “I’m begging you to be my safety.”
  • “I know s/he’s your’s.”
  • “I don’t have the time.”
  • “Would you believe me if I said I was drunk?”
  • “I want you to want me.”
  • “You saw the truth in me.”
  • “This is love in the fast lane.”
  • “I think I should leave.”
  • “We both could do better.”
  • “You see, I’ve got this boy/girl, and s/he don’t love me back.”
  • “Come back down to earth from wherever you are.”
  • “S/He puts the pain to ease.”
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