Women of Color, in Solidarity: Hiatus Announcement
Hi everyone!
Did you know that a few days ago (March 3rd, to be exact), marked Women of Color, in Solidarity turning five years old?
Wow!
I’ve been thinking over this post for a few days, constantly coming back to it to figure out the right things to say. But it’s been difficult to really put into words everything I feel about this blog.
When Aiesha, Attanya and I first started it, we were just juniors in college really going through some rough fucking times. I think it’s okay to speak for all three of us when I say we really needed a place that we could hold space with and for each other. Somewhere to vent, to share resources, to celebrate women who looked like us, and to wrestle with some really fucking hard-hitting ideas and emotions. At least for me, I didn’t really have any specific ideas about how I wanted this blog to form. I was angry and felt isolated and was yearning for a space to just kind of exist… even if that space was this online platform.
I don’t think any of us really knew what running a blog like this would entail or that it would gain the traction that it has. I guess to be transparent: I didn’t realize how emotionally draining this would be. The first couple of years (and damn do I feel old saying that!) were probably the hardest because I always felt a pressure to Know everything. To constantly be available for this blog and always have an opinion on everything. Now that I’m a little older, I know that is A) just unrealistic B) totally unhealthy and C) in total opposition to what movement building and activism is.
Maybe it sounds obvious, but one of the best things I learned from moderating this blog is that I don’t need to know about everything and it’s more than okay to say “I’m not informed enough about that to speak on it” and “there are other, better resources to help with that” and “I’m moving back from this conversation.” One of the great things about this Tumblr for me has been learning from not only outside resources - other blogs, people I know irl, journalists, academics, activists, friends, people who fall into all those categories - but from you. From other people running Tumblogs similar to this. Being able to consult other resources or just point others out has always been important to me - and over the years I realized through this blog how critical it is to my mujerista/feminist formation.
Tied for that is the idea that I - and we all - are constantly growing and changing people. As I continue(d) to learn and engage with communities I want to be in solidarity with and do grassroots work with people I realized that at the end of the day, who I was even five minutes ago is not who I am. I read through some of the things we first posted about and I’m almost surprised at how different my feels are now. Lol not so much about base theory, maybe. But about how I critique others (as well as myself!) and how I am reframing how to navigate spaces and people. As I continue on - hopefully with a more and more nuanced lens and self-awareness an constant reflection about who I am and what I do and what my communities work for and what we can be - I find myself coming back to this Grace Lee Boggs quote:
As Jimmy Boggs used to remind us, revolutions are made out of love for people and for place. He often talked about loving America enough to change it. ‘I love this country,’ he used to say, ‘not only because my ancestors’ blood is in the soil but because of what I believe it can become.’ Love isn’t just something you feel. It’s something you do everyday… Love isn’t about what we did yesterday; it’s about what we do today and tomorrow and the day after.
I strive to embody this idea. At the end of the day, when I’m angry and tired and fucked up (And these are all emotions that have their uses… and sometimes they don’t and that’s okay too, sometimes we just need to feel) I always try to come back to this. To love as action and as liberation. And maybe this is extraordinarily corny to say but moderating this blog is one of the things has helped me to come to this place.
I love Women of Color, in Solidarity.
And not for nothing - I love that this is a space that people know about, that they reference and that they get excited about when I tell them I’m a founder. I love that this has been a starting resource for people and that it’s helped people to start their own journey into feminism, womanism, mujerism, or however they label. I’ve met so many people irl (not to brag, but including previous bosses) who have told me how impressed they are with this blog. With the work and care we have put into it.
And I know that recognition isn’t everything, just as I know follower count isn’t everything. But I’d be lying if I didn’t say I’m not constantly awed that there are 27,000 (give or take) or you out there. I hope that for all of you, this has been a good online place. Where you celebrated or learned or heavily critiqued or downright disagreed (because spoiler alert: that’s how I’ve felt about everything we’ve posted, at one time or another). I still can’t believe we got a shout-out from the Tumblr staff last year (thank you to the intern snuck that in ;) )
So. This all being said.
Some of you may have noticed that we’ve slowed down a lot on this blog. Aiesha and Attanya have both been on leaves of absences for a while, and I’ve been mostly just posting via queue. As much as I love this space, it’s a lot of work to maintain. I know it’s “just” a Tumblog but a lot of work goes into finding resources, fact-checking things, and posting/reblogging pertinent information. Where all three of us are now is much different than where we were in the past, just in terms of what we have time and space for and where are priorities are.
This is why I am officially announcing our hiatus. I’ll reblog this post a few times just to keep you all updated, but this will probably be for a few weeks. Just as we regroup and determine what we want for the future of this blog. That could look like any number of things - but just know whatever we decide, the page will still be up with tons of resources, including our archive, list of other Tumblrs like ours, and formative texts.
In solidarity,
Jennifer
March 8th, 2018