I suppose it holds some value against the background of the current events in my life. 

Off Balance

A good historial summary, I think..

Yuval Noah Harari 

Aiseh!

Muthuswami Dikshatar did fusion so long ago tho!

Such a cool idea to explain the same concept in five different levels! 

Also, yay Bio!

Also, the best way to learn and be a constructive member of society is science foundation, art/humans overview, science to solve the problems...

Maybe I can do a part-time science programme/diploma!!

I got Norway as my top country. 14/16 matches. 

France, US, Denmark (which was the most popular globally), Canada, Iceland as the next most popular.

And Japan as the last tier of countries that match my political views haha.

What even?! Listen to v2.

Google’s DEEPMIND AI.

So funny, but my god! Interesting times. I have to learn coding or info systems or smth SOON!!

Optimism. delusional. Positive.

“The Ethics of Everest”

Came across it on my Facebook feed.

Need to find these shows and watch them. 

I-can’t-do-anything-right

21/6.  That’s my overarching emotion right now - that I can’t do anything right. Can’t be a good caregiver, can’t be a good girlfriend, can’t be a good sister, can’t be a good employee, can’t be good to myself. Nothing. Useless. And I really felt like dying would be much more beneficial to the world than my existence. 

I feel like I don’t deserve being in a relationship, to some extent. I’m so warped and poisonous and dangerous and painful to have around. 

I was so tired today; I just fell asleep once I left the family at Compass One Mall. It was useless for me to have taken half-day leave because I didn’t help anyone, just made matters worse. If it had been lavan alone talking to her, it surely wouldn’t have escalated, she would have felt great. But it was me. Senseless Ind*** who doesn’t know how to do anything right.

It’s like after all I did when lavan was away, I thought I should have the right to participate in the caregiving (I felt like I proved myself able), and then I go muck it up. I don’t know if the way I’m thinking about things is wrong or what too. Really have lost confidence in myself. 

And I just feel like isolating myself, going to work, coming home and wasting away on movies or smth, until I build up enough battery to get up and do things. I’m so useless. 

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Start with walking for about 1-2 hours on flat surface for a week and gradually increase it to about 3 hours with walks on inclines for four or five days a week with a backpack with about 4 kg in it.

If you work out in the gym then walking on the treadmill with a backpack at a 2-5% incline will enhance your endurance and also strengthen you.