Every time someone misgenders me anytime ever. #whydoiexist
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Adrienne Rich
Hermione on her first day in the wizarding world
Breaking Astrology Down
Your Sun is about yourself. Your Moon is your heart. Your Rising is how you look. Your Mercury is the way you think. Your Venus is how you love. Your Mars is how you deal with life. Your Jupiter is your luck. Your Saturn is how you discipline yourself and your responsibilities. Your Uranus is how unique you are. Your Neptune is your imagination. Your Pluto is your transformation. Your Chiron is how you heal. Your Ceres is how you take care of yourself. Your Pallas is your relationships. Your Juno is beauty and Influences. Your Vesta is your potential and your organization. Your North Node is how you develop in your current life. Your South Node is how you developed in your past life. Your Midheaven is your career, how others view you. Your Lilith is your hidden emotions.
What she says: I’m fine
What she means: In Howl’s Moving Castle Sophie goes back in time and witnesses Howl making his original deal with Calcifer thus discovering the way to break Howl’s curse and before she leaves she tells Howl to find her in the future and if you recall to the beginning of the movie Howl saves Sophie from some highly questionable and rapey soldiers and tells her “there you are sweetheart, sorry I’m late, I’ve been looking everywhere for you” because he took what she told him as a child to heart and has been looking for her ever since and if that’s not the tightest shit ever I don’t know what is
Mercury
Poems for my brother
Man.
You constructed self from mother. Opposite compliment moving towards something other than she. Made self into man by staring in the mirror notice chisled jaw. Straight teeth. Remembered uncles hair, football teams and legs meant for running.
I see yourself in the mirror. Crooked smile. Straighter teeth. Never had a cavity. Digs deep into enamel chipped away crusts. Cavity. My mouth feels empty when your name falls out. There are men in my life who piece you together. Man. Made boy. Like eve, you come from body, our mother. Brother. Made absent father. Made man. Made cavity. Reigned empty.
I see yourself in the mirror. Crooked smile chisled jaw. Remember braided hair, straight back. I see yourself in parts of my body. Look for you in my hands. The wayy hair curls like yours wavy. Black. Man. Brother turned father made absent. Reigned empty.
I see yourself in the mirror. Jawline. Point and peaked lip. The puckered smear across to be red. Red. Red. perfection. Outlined. Pinned. Defined. Notice the way my eyes are the same shades of green. Freckled face.
You constructed self of emptied father. Drained. Needle and spoon emptied self into bottom after bottom after bottomed out.
Gone
Is this what you felt when you left.
Which time felt right
Always remembered what it was to be
Just
Y
O
U
Alone. Self. Alone. Home. Alone. Alone. Alone.
Where did you find home?
How long did it take to notice difference in
Home
And
Self. Alone.
What was it like when you came
Home.
Did it feel different? Did you lose yourself
Again
Stolen. Taken. Held
Captive.
Where do you find home?
Was it in the countryside of foreign lands? When just self and sun rose tilted and turned. Churning self from wound and survival. Smooth. Easy. Patience. Diligent. Self churned from survival. Rich and decadent self. Come
Home.