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B.M.F= BAD MOTHA FUCKA

@blaxican--bae96 / blaxican--bae96.tumblr.com

hiiiiii. 21. Blaxican. SoCal. Delicate fucking flower. Music junkie. Library Elf. Pug Lover.
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grantcary
I think that Aaliyah’s death will always leave a hole in urban music, and I think that people will always miss her, but I hope that the positive image that she represented will carry on, and that young people will still aspire to the greatness that she exuded. -Emil Wilbekin She had a refreshing outlook for one so young, with true respect for her art and for her elders. She brought joy to my heart, and I felt blessed to encourage and support her professionally and personally as she strove for each new goal. -Gladys Knight She would just do silly stuff. One time, she put these big fake teeth in her mouth, the kind you get at a joke shop, and she came into my room and started doing the scenes from Romeo Must Die. Her personality was very playful, but she was also equally caring and compassionate. -Missy Elliott (Aaliyah) was like my seventh daughter. She had so much grace. That’s why I just thought her so special — that such a young person always approached her creativity with humility and her success with such grace. -Quincy Jones She matured a lot in the last year. She really settled into her womanhood. Her parents gave her more freedom, and she took more control of her projects. She fell in love with Damon and that was it. She wanted to have a family, and we talked about how we couldn’t wait to kick back with our babies. -Kidada Jones God definitely must’ve needed an extra angel. A real strong angel. -Sean Combs
I want people to remember me as a full on entertainer and a good person.
R.I.P. BabyGirl (16 January 1979 - 25 August 2001 ∞)
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kimteayawns

Here's to all the mixed girls who:

- don’t have perfect, thick curly hair - don’t have light skin - don’t have blue or green eyes - don’t have small, perky noses - don’t have freckles that dot their cheeks - don’t have curves - don’t look like zendaya or all the other pretty mixed girls portrayed in the media

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100 Reasons NOT To Kill Yourself

  • 1. We would miss you.
  • 2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
  • 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
  • 4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing.
  • 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
  • 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
  • 7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
  • 8. You are amazing.
  • 9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.
  • 10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead.
  • 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive.
  • 12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die.
  • 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
  • 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.
  • 15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
  • 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?
  • 17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.
  • 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again…
  • 19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day
  • 20. Listening to incredibly loud music
  • 21. Being alive is just really good.
  • 22. Not being alive is really bad.
  • 23. Finding your soulmate.
  • 24. Red pandas
  • 25. Going to diners at three in the morning.
  • 26. Really soft pillows.
  • 27. Eating pizza in New York City.
  • 28. Proving people wrong with your success.
  • 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
  • 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
  • 31. Being able to help other people.
  • 32. Bonfires.
  • 33. Sitting on rooftops.
  • 34. Seeing every single country in the world.
  • 35. Going on roadtrips.
  • 36. You might win the lottery someday.
  • 37. Listening to music on a record player.
  • 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
  • 39. Taking really cool pictures.
  • 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.
  • 41. Hearing crazy stories.
  • 42. Telling crazy stories.
  • 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day.
  • 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know.
  • 45. Travelling to another planet someday.
  • 46. Having an underwater house.
  • 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street.
  • 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.
  • 49. Trampolines.
  • 50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again.
  • 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke,
  • 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
  • 53. People do care.
  • 54. Treehouses
  • 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse
  • 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees
  • 56. I don’t even know you and I love you.
  • 57. I don’t even know you and I care about you.
  • 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
  • 59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor.
  • 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS!
  • 61. Starbucks.
  • 62. Hugs.
  • 63. Stargazing.
  • 64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is.
  • 65. You’ve changed somebody’s life.
  • 66. Now you could change the world.
  • 67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you.
  • 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.
  • 69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life.
  • 70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.
  • 71. Making snow angels.
  • 72. Making snowmen.
  • 73. Snowball fights.
  • 74. Life is what you make of it.
  • 75. Everybody has a talent.
  • 76. Laughing until you cry.
  • 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
  • 78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist.
  • 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down
  • 80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive.
  • 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.
  • 82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.
  • 83. One day your smile will be real.
  • 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
  • 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds.
  • 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends.
  • 87. Eating crazy food.
  • 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one.
  • 89. Sleeping in all day.
  • 90. Creating something you’re proud of.
  • 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit
  • 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.
  • 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate
  • 94. Sherlock season three.
  • 95. Cuddling under the stars.
  • 96. Being stupid in public because you just can.
  • 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?
  • 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years
  • 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
  • 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen
  • IF that isn’t enough:
  • Depression Hotline:1-630-482-9696
  • Suicide Hotline:1-800-784-8433
  • LifeLine:1-800-273-8255
  • Trevor Project:1-866-488-7386
  • Sexuality Support:1-800-246-7743
  • Eating Disorders Hotline:1-847-831-3438
  • Rape and Sexual Assault:1-800-656-4673
  • Grief Support:1-650-321-5272
  • Runaway:1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
  • Exhale:After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
  • Child Abuse:1-800-422-4453
  • UK Helplines:
  • Samaritans (for any problem):08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org
  • Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem):08001111
  • Mind infoline (mental health information):0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk
  • Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice):0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk
  • b-eat eating disorder support:0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk
  • b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders):08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)
  • Cruse Bereavement Care:08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk
  • Frank (information and advice on drugs):0800776600
  • Drinkline:0800 9178282
  • Rape Crisis England & Wales:0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk
  • Rape Crisis Scotland:08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight
  • India Self Harm Hotline:00 08001006614
  • India Suicide Helpline:022-27546669
  • Kids Help Phone (Canada):1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7
  • suicide hotlines;
  • Argentina:54-0223-493-0430
  • Australia:13-11-14
  • Austria:01-713-3374
  • Barbados:429-9999
  • Belgium:106
  • Botswana:391-1270
  • Brazil:21-233-9191
  • China:852-2382-0000
  • (Hong Kong:2389-2222)
  • Costa Rica:606-253-5439
  • Croatia:01-4833-888
  • Cyprus:357-77-77-72-67
  • Czech Republic:222-580-697, 476-701-908
  • Denmark:70-201-201
  • Egypt:762-1602
  • Estonia:6-558-088
  • Finland:040-5032199
  • France:01-45-39-4000
  • Germany:0800-181-0721
  • Greece:1018
  • Guatemala:502-234-1239
  • Holland:0900-0767
  • Honduras:504-237-3623
  • Hungary:06-80-820-111
  • Iceland:44-0-8457-90-90-90
  • Israel:09-8892333
  • Italy:06-705-4444
  • Japan:3-5286-9090
  • Latvia:6722-2922, 2772-2292
  • Malaysia:03-756-8144
  • (Singapore:1-800-221-4444)
  • Mexico:525-510-2550
  • Netherlands:0900-0767
  • New Zealand:4-473-9739
  • New Guinea:675-326-0011
  • Nicaragua:505-268-6171
  • Norway:47-815-33-300
  • Philippines:02-896-9191
  • Poland:52-70-000
  • Portugal:239-72-10-10
  • Russia:8-20-222-82-10
  • Spain:91-459-00-50
  • South Africa:0861-322-322
  • South Korea:2-715-8600
  • Sweden:031-711-2400
  • Switzerland:143
  • Taiwan:0800-788-995
  • Thailand:02-249-9977
  • Trinidad and Tobago:868-645-2800
  • Ukraine:0487-327715
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nictalks

Being a Mixed Race Girl: The Unique Identity Crisis

In a world where appearances are everything, it can be hard to fit in when your identity can’t be pinpointed by the way you look. I giggle to myself every time I have to check one of those race boxes for test or something. Usually I check 3: African American, Hispanic and Native American (sometimes white…I do have a splash of Irish in me).

In high school and college I was forced to choose only one. I thought it was peculiar how eager the government was to pigeon-hole me and my culture into one description, a description related to my color. I choose to be “Hispanic” on paper for 8 years, not because I related more to that side of me, but, admittedly, because Hispanics are generally offered more scholarship sand financial because a language barrier is assumed. Apparently, the preconception is that I grew up speaking Spanish and so for me know English is a grand accomplishment. Yes, I grew up speaking Spanish as a secondary language, but my home was primarily English speaking.

I remember receiving 2 scholarships in high school for my PSAT scores: one for just doing well on the thing and one for doing well and being Hispanic. My counselor called me in and told me I could also get an award for doing well and being African American. Believe it or not, to qualify for this one, I had to prove that I was actually black, since I was in the system as only “Hispanic” and my light skin color backed that up. To do this, I had to fax in a photocopy of my dad’s driver’s license so they could see that yes, as far as skin color goes, my dad is as black as one can get.

I realized the conundrum of being mixed race pretty young. I remember as a young child noticing that my dad was waaaaaaaaaaay darker than me, Alex and my mom. But, I never thought anything of it…until other kids pointed it out. Everyone on my private tennis team, who all had the luxury of being unmistakably Indian, claimed that I couldn’t possibly be my dad’s kid, that I was definitely adopted. I remember coming home from practice dejected and asking my mom if she and Dad weren’t really my parents. It was then that she explained to me how genes work and that I get half my characteristics from her and the other half from Dad. One of the things I got from her was my skin color and hair. Then, she showed a picture of me and Alex and Dad together and pointed out that I had my dad’s smile and a bit of his nose. Feeling relieved, I went back to tennis practice to confidently report that I was indeed my father’s daughter.

The pressure to choose one race or the other is ever present for mixed girls, especially when you have traits that don’t stereo typically belong with  a certain race. I play basketball but I sound like a white girl and I also speak Spanish and dance salsa. I can belt out R&B AND the entire soundtrack to Wicked. And OMG do you know what it’s like to be the one politically conservative one at your high school table of black friends? “DISGRACE TO YOUR RACE!” Why can’t I just do what I want to do and think how I want to think because I want to?! Sometimes, I wish I looked more like one or the other so I could stop having to choose.

But I don’t have to choose! Being mixed race is awesome. It’s unique! I get to experience several different cultures and make them all my own. I get to enjoy the puzzled stares as people try to figure out “what I am.” I can only imagine how much worse it’ll be for our half-Filipino, half-……well, me…children when people try to figure them out. Either way, I don’t have to choose a stereotypical way to live or act. I can just be…me, and so should everyone else, regardless of their color or how others think they should fit in. Fit in by living how you want to live. Eventually, you will be surrounded by people who accept you for you. 

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