you asked if i read if
what good would it do me to tell you that i read it so many times i could almost almost repeat if word for word?
what good would it tell you reading it out a knife in my heart
what good would it tell you that i wish it was a different answer cuz im selfish enough to want you ?
what good does it do either of us akechi ???
i still hold to my original answer that i didn’t want anything in return
i didn’t i don’t
but god almighty i spoke to you
i ///spoke to you and whatever you are to Mercy came alive
because ever since then i’ve been plagued with the massive belief i’m losing something i can’t name
i’ve felt it before with lance
to the point it was painful but i never fucking felt it this strong before
i never felt the insane urge to keep trying again and again and again despite you saying you felt nothing thaf “it wasn’t our time then” and all these other tiny fragments that felt like knives to my heart
i fought to return home
to you
to you
out of everything out of everyone besides jay and zephyr my fight was to return to you
and how
how was i supposed to know you had moved on you had erased or removed or let go of 2 years like …..
like that
my memories of that time are gone akechi
it’s gone idk if they’ll ever truly come back
but you know what’s wild you know what’s insane you know what hurts?
i wanted to try
to remember you to get to know you
what good does it do either of us that i’m reduced to do this but i want a new introduction???
to be able to wake up and say “hey, i’m so and so. nice to meet you, finally”
what good does it do me akechi
to tell you these things and you’re not even on the same page as me?
i miss you so much h it hurts i feel like im. ding cleaved in half cuz that is how much of you is still here even if the memories truly aren’t
