goodbye

this is my final goodbye. from this day forth this blog shall no longer be updated, nor even logged in. 

for the longest time the hunger games was a relief from my darkest demons, from the perpetual pain I was feeling but lately it has only been making them worse. the truth is I’m simply not equipped to handle all these emotions. 

I don’t want to see prim get blown up or finnick ripped apart. I don’t want to cry and to hurt like I did before. I’m too attached and quite frankly it’s unhealthy; so I’m detaching myself completely and most likely until I can sort myself out, a task I don’t take lightly and will probably take a long time.

so, yes, I am abandoning this blog. I shall no longer be posting anything here, be that reblogs or personal edits. if by some chance I do decide to return to the fandom, I will most likely be posting on my main so feel free to unfollow this blog. 

lastly, thank you suzanne. for so long I’ve wished that I could go back in time to when I first read the books. I loved them from the first page and they came to me at a time when everything was perfect. they remind me of those good times, even though they also remind me of the worst of times, but ultimately, they changed me, offered me a bit of light in a particularly dark time and for that I will be eternally thankful.