I might not have reached out, but I was thinking of you :)
Hello, me.
Today I feel so ecstatic. I can feel it in my body, bits by bits, I am feeling like my self again. All the joys and smiles running through my veins. I saw bright blue skies, flowery plants, smiley familiar faces. I got to travel, did things I actually like, got great friends and family.
It is a great day. I have a great life.
You know, life is too short. Only because of that, the life we live can be so pretty. It is complex and beautiful.
I think, on every connections, you gave a little bit (or a lot) of yourself to others. A mosaic of little you, for the universe. You create joy here and there, and of course in my life.
And I feel grateful for the feelings I have today. Tomorrow is never promised but here, today, I feel blessed.
I fancy you.
I starting to believe I will die without any real romance happening in my life. Maybe I'll never meet the person who actually likes me as much as I like him, or at least genuinely wants to be with me. It's kind of sad, isn't it? I have so much love that will just gonna go wasted out of the time.
really like this part of the song
Moon, tell me if I could
Send up my heart to you?
So, when I die, which I must do
Could it shine down here with you?
Dosenku pernah bilang, "Kalau mau semuanya adil itu ya bukan di dunia. Di dunia banyak yang ngga adil. Kalau mau adil nanti di akhirat". Aku sekarang baru sadar ternyata itu bekal ku untuk ikhlas.
Different Kind of Love
Romantic relationship always comes with condition. It won't be unconditional.
a not so fun girlfriend
I often think that I might be a fun friend, but I'm most likely a terrible girlfriend.
I have wounded-complicated mind that makes everything so complex. One might say, you could make it easier, why complicate things? Well, darling, I told my self those things everyday. Yet, here I am, here we are.
The Purpose
There were two person involved. They used to be a couple. At some point in their partnership, they mutually decided to part ways. The main reason was for both of them to have a happier thriving life.
Now, they do have a joyful life without each other. They have their own stories, circles, goals, plans, and everything in between without each other. I would say, in some ways, they have achieved their resolution. And isn't it nice to see that? This is the very reason they took the rough trace.
Well, for me, it is a joy seeing you flourish.
Scenic
I wanna see me the way that I see you.
A fine gem
I think you are the best and nicest person in the whole world.
Romantic relationship is not for everyone. It is a privilege. While it last, it should be celebrated, appreciated, and respected.
duniadiny reblogged
I tend to write more when I feel sad, grief, or confused. Life has plenty of brighter parts, of course, I sometimes forgot to preserve it through words.
Wow apparently this is backed by science!
Writing and talking about negative experience will help us improve our life satisfaction and mental well being, compared by thinking about it. Writing and talking will allow us labelling our emotions, understand them, and let them go.
However, for positive experience, writing and talking will make us less satisfy because writing and talking will force us analyse our experience. It may lead to questioning our good fortune.
So, I think it is good that I don’t really like to write about happy moments. Based on science, it is good that I just replay it over and over again in my mind. Just savouring the happiness without analyse it too much.
I like it so much when I find the science behind things in life, in some ways it can validate what I think/do hahaha.
Look up Lyubomirsky et al. (2006). The costs and benefits of writing, talking, and thinking about life’s triumphs and defeats.
Important lesson learned in 2020:
- Be careful with assumptions, realisation, and confirmation bias.
- Happiness and sadness come and go, but you can train yourself to have more frequent happy phase.
- Inner peace might be more sustainable than happy/sad/other emotions.
- Emotional maturity and intelligent are as important as intellectual development.
- Building relationship requires intention, time, energy, and actual efforts.
A home I've been looking for
I have a small garden and library in a house with blue walls. I'm surrounded by people who are genuinely love me. I'm home. ❤️.
You can stop here
Hey,
You don't have to carry the weight on your shoulders. Put it down. Stop torture yourself. Be happy. It is okay.