ever been so forgotten by everyone that you question if you even actually exist ? Mood
There has to be somewhere that everything is okay. Sometimes I wish that things would just stop moving. I feel so incredibly alone all the time and I don't know who to turn to, I don't know who or how to tell that I feel like killing myself constanty. I don't know how to make things better and it just seems to get worse and worse all the time. People tell me that they love me and that they're here for me and yet no one ever asks if I want to hang out, no one ever asks how I'm doing. No one can tell when I'm having a hard time, they can't see the change and I feel like I'm standing in front of a crowd of people and yelling and no one can hear me. I feel like I'm yelling and screaming and moving and no one can see me, no one wants to see me. I want to feel loved, I want to be loved so hard that even if I was gone for a day someone would miss me, just one person that's all I need. I want so badly to fit in with others and be a part of a group of people who love me and want to spend time with me and instead I just kind of float through my days and pretend like I'm okay with sitting in a room alone. I don't think people do it on purpose, I think it's my fault. I don't know who I am. Why would I expect anyone else to understand me. I try so hard to be nice to people, to know them and be there for them and no one is ever here. They're never here when I need them. I want to just die. I want the courage to go ahead and kill myself and I don't want to have to think about it because then people would miss me, then someone would see me screaming they would hear me. I want to be good enough for all the people I love, I want to fit in and have a good time and laugh and play and be loved
Naver profile update
Are any of my followers still here?
I think I want to start posting again
Aw baby
jjong + blue night radio quotes [02.03.14 - 04.02-17] thank you jjongd. until we meet again ❤
some jonghyun moments i never want to forget
- standing up for lgbt students and minorities at large by amplifying their voices, but doing so respectfully (dec 2013)
- reflecting on his appreciation for hero movies… ‘i have to protect my world’ (mar 2013)
- receiving boxes of listerine after a joke comparing his deja-boo suit colors to listerine flavors went viral, during base promotions (feb 2015)
- comforting a fan who was self-conscious about her name with a handwritten note at a shinee fansign (may 2015)
- going to comfort a crying key during shinee’s concert at tokyo dome, but ending up crying himself (early 2015)
- speaking playfully with a male listener on blue night radio (may 2015)
- mentioning his gratitude for fans and listeners in creating a safe space with blue night radio (july 2015)
- discussing his conversation with taemin about “gender roles, prejudices and negative views about artists, etc.” when writing pretty boy for taemin ft. kai on blue night radio (aug 2015)
- personally supporting radio guest baek young ok on blue night radio in her efforts to bring sanitary pads to low-income girls (mar 2017)
there are so many more moments to include but i wanted to hold onto these for sure. jonghyun, you were a celebrity like no other. i cant imagine a world without you. i wish you’d gotten to known how many hearts and minds you touched with your voice, your songwriting, and just by being yourself.
Rest In Peace, Kim Jonghyun. Thank you for your voice, your love, your smiles and for inspiring and making millions of people happy. You will forever live on in our memories.
Jonghyun was one of the most thoughtful artists I’ve ever followed. His support for the lgbt community and his advocacy for mental health has been a beacon of hope in an industry that denies both. I can’t even put in words how much he will be missed and how much this hurts.
171209 Jimin’s Tweet
곧 봐요" 기다려주셔서 진심으로 고마워요 #JIMIN
See you soon” I sincerely thank you for waiting #JIMIN
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Jhope and Jungkook ordering food ^_^
aesthetically pleasing