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I wish I could just say, “It’s hard,” without shame.

It’s hard.

It’s hard breathing in a world that closes around your throat. It’s hard looking up when all the weight pushes down. It’s hard loving people who don’t do what they’re supposed to do in SPITE of the mental memos, psychic scripts, and telepathic instructions that start off reading FOUR AM, MOMMY SLEEPS and turn into FOUR AM, MOMMY HEARS HER CONTACT LENSES FLUSHED DOWN THE TOILET.

It’s hard knowing the ship you want to sail is moving and your feet are still firmly on the dock. It’s hard not knowing what’s scary so you don’t know how to be brave when everything is scary. It’s hard crying in your car for no reason and it’s hard saying you’ve been crying in your car for no reason. And it’s hard if there’s a reason.

It’s harder when I think there’s something wrong with me if it’s hard. It’s hard not wrapping a bow around this to make it okay for you that it’s hard for either of us.

But my pixie angel muse sent this:

…it seems like the world has determined it’s really going to make you work to get by, just to live and i don’t know how real that is, or what many of the details of it may be, but from over here, i just see “that chick is all lean muscle. that’s somebody who fights for every day. being fierce as fuck is this person’s primary activity”

So if today is hard for you, you’re not alone. And somebody probably sees you the same way.

Okay, fuck it, here’s the bow: it will pass. It’s MIGHT be that there is no sun… or maybe it’s just midnight right now.

You know what is the most beautiful thing about this gif ? Jensen’s laugh yes, but there is something even more beautiful.. and it’s the way Jared finished his interview and he immediately starts looking for jensen. Its like Jensen is his safe place. He needs to be sure that Jensen is right there, beside him.

the “if i look really sad, maybe she’ll give me the mushroom” look

Vote now for Ship of the Year by liking and reblogging your OTP here on Tumblr! Remember, notes = votes, so  be sure to show your favorite ship some love and tune into the 2016 @mtvfandom Awards on July 24th at 8/7c to see who wins!

Art by @sheep-in-clouds

Vote now for Ship of the Year by liking and reblogging your OTP here on Tumblr! Remember, notes = votes, so  be sure to show your favorite ship some love and tune into the 2016 @mtvfandom Awards on July 24th at 8/7c to see who wins!

Art by @sheep-in-clouds

Jensen Ackles: “I’d trust my life with this guy, I’d jump in front of a bullet for him any day and never think twice!”

Xoxo

- K

© @acoleice   AKF  YANA

Last night was the worst mass shooting in US history. We are taking the morning to reflect and will resume #GISHWHESTakesTumblr around 11AM PDT.

See you soon.

In the meantime, we’re changing our avatar in memory of the victims. If you would like to change your avatar as well you may save this image and upload.

MAYHEM!!!!

Everybody knows orange blogs are so passé! Impress us with the season’s hottest trend: bubble wrap. 

done?

MAYHEM ALERT!!!!!!!

Everyone knows Misha Collins doesn’t have a favorite color, but if he did it would probably be orange. Change your blog to orange until further notice.

done !

GISHWHES HAS TAKEN TUMBLR!

Do not attempt to adjust your Internet. We are controlling your dashboard. Misha Collins and GISHWHES (The Greatest International Scavenger Hunt the World Has Ever Seen) have officially taken over Tumblr!

For the next 30 hours anyone who wants can join GISHWHES in working its way into the farthest reaches of the tumblrsphere, entering into the territory of some of your most dearly held celebrities as Misha Collins, GISHWHES, and you take over every space in the Tumblrverse creating art, kindness and mayhem..

We will do this through a massive online scavenger hunt that will challenge your wit, creativity, weirdness and your ability to throw caution and normalcy to the wind and truly experience the world around you in ways you never have before.

Oh yes - and there will be prizes! Lots and lots of prizes. There will also be a massive charitable component so we can do a lot of good while we’re making mischief.

Abandon complacency! Death 2 Normalcy! Embrace GISHWHES and join us for GISHWHES TAKES TUMBLR!

How does it work?

It’s easy! Just keep an eye on the gishwhes blog (officialgishwhes.tumblr.com). Misha will post creative tasks (“items”) every hour or two to be completed in a certain time frame. You complete them and then post them to Tumblr with certain tags. Then you’ll probably win prizes and get to give stuff to great charities! See more details below as there are some things you need to do to make sure we see your submissions!

30 Hours! I can’t play for 30 hours!

You don’t have to. You can complete as many items as you wish and play as long as you wish (and you can start playing at any point over the next 30 hours). Each item winner will get a prize and be able to select something wonderful for a charity in need. You could even just do 1 single item if you wish and try to win the prize.

What’s it cost?

Nothing! It’s free.

How do you determine the winner of each item?

The winning submission will be based on the following criteria: (1) quality of submission, (2) speed of submission (3) did the submission make the judges laugh, cry, or feel hungry, (4) and the general moods of our judges at the moment they see your submission. (Note: our judges were recently classified by “Judges Mood Analysis Classification of America” as the “Top Most Moodiestest Judges in North America” - we’re very proud of this). Do your best! But remember this is really about creating chaos on Tumblr, pushing your artistic boundaries and supporting some great charities!

I’m in. How do I sign-up? What do I do?

1. If you’re not a registered Tumblr user, go sign up at www.tumblr.com, then come back to officialgishwhes.tumblr.com to join us! You don’t have to register for anything else, pay a fee, give a blood sample, or anything else. You’re a Tumblr user and that’s good enough for us.

2, We’ll post an item on officialgishwhes.tumblr.com.

3, Follow the instructions to complete the stated item as requested. This might include making something, or doing something online or doing a thing out in the World. (Or it could be something else entirely. We don’t know. We just snuck in here and we’re making this up as we go!)

4. Post your submission as indicated on officialgishwhes.tumblr.com and any other blog or site that you may be directed to thereafter.

5. Tag your entries #gishwhestakestumblr and #gtt(number). For example, if the Item is Item #1, it would be tagged #gishwhestakestumblr and #gtt1. But don’t worry- every time we release an item, we’ll tell you what tags you should be using. Just make sure you use them or your submission won’t be counted and will be lost to the void of the Interwebs.

THIS IS IMPORTANT. If you don’t put your requested tags in the FIRST tags on the post, we might not see it  and you might not win a prize. That’s a tragedy we can easily avoid.  Just type  #gishwhestakestumblr and #gtt(number) as the first tags in every post you submit for consideration.

6. Respect the deadlines!

Each item will have a deadline which we will post. Make sure you post your item by the deadline in order for it to count for a prize.

7. Make sure your “asks” are on so if you won, we can reach out to you to get your contact information so we can send you your prize.

To summarize:

1. Be a registered Tumblr user, or sign up for Tumblr.

2. Watch for posts on officialgishwhes.tumblr.com

3. Follow the instructions to complete the stated ITEM as requested. Be creative! Creativity is key.

4. Post your completed item to Tumblr.

5. TAG that post #gishwhestakestumblr and #gtt(number). We’ll tell you which tags to use.

6. Make sure the first tags in your post are #gishwhestakestumblr and #gtt(number) or we won’t see it.

7. Post your submission by the deadline we state to be eligible to win the prize for that item.

8. Keep your “asks” open so we can reach you if you won.

The name of the game with this scavenger hunt is speed chaos creativity mayhem (it’s a really long name - so you can just call it “Bob” to keep it simple). We will post items periodically over the 30 hours and deadlines for submission may vary, but generally will be about 2 hours for each item (unless we feel like doing it differently). So make awesome submissions, but do it fast!

We will release multiple items at a time, so if you can’t do one thing, chances are you can do another.

4.PRIZES

Are there prizes? Oh yeah. There are prizes. We have a great big pile of CRAP (Completely Ridiculously Awesome Prizes) here with us at at GISHWHES mobile HQ and we’re eager to give it away to people like you.

Each item will have a winner. That means instead of having a single winner for the hunt (like the GISHWHES Hunt in August will), we’ll have dozens of winners. Each winner will receive a prize pack filled with crazy cool stuff including high end tech gear, fandom merch, and exclusive signed merchandise and props from television shows - this is CRAP you cannot get anywhere and will never be able to get anywhere else ever again.

(SPOILER ALERT: There are also some incredible prizes that have been generously donated by some of the celebrities whose blogs we’re going to sneak into later… But shhh! We didn’t tell you about that yet.)

IF YOU LOVE JENSEN ACKLES...

Thank him with me. This man deserves all the praise and appreciation in the world & I want to give him as many thank yous as I can get.

Since the PCA runners didn’t even feel the need to invite the winner of a main award to accept it in person, I say fuck them, we’ll give him a better trophy. I’m writing Jensen a thank you letter for Dean & all Jensen’s done for fandom. I’d like the thank you to be from more than just me. It should be from all of us who love Dean & appreciate Jensen. 

Depending on the number of responses I get I’ll give this too him at either Pittcon or NJcon. Pitcon deadline to send a message will be July 6th. That’s not giving this much time to get go around so if I don’t get many notes I will wait till NJcon & that dead line will be November 2nd.

C’mon guys, let’s show Jensen we appreciate what he does for us.

Please include me in the list! :)

Dean Winchester | 11x21 All In The Family

Jensen, as usual, killed this monologue, but this entire speech should have been Sam’s.  

Can I just point out how rude this post is? If you want to air your frustrations, please make your own post. Next time refrain from polluting a perfectly nice post that’s centered around Dean and showcases Jensen’s brilliant acting. 

I’m not even going to get into the reasons why this particular speech and scene was tailor-made for Dean. But if any other Dean fan wants to do so - have at it. 

::raises hand::

Because unlike Sam, who was so prideful that he thought God would deing to speak to him, which means Sam would have focused on his own problems and own feelings rather than on the fact that God abandoned EVERYONE, Dean never thought he was important enough to matter to God… And the fact that he was right, that when he said that God didn’t care, he was right, makes it more devastating than having someone who just repeated “but he cares” realize that no, God doesn’t.

Because no matter how much we repeat about that 180 years of torture that Sam doesn’t even remember anyway (in the sense that he doesn’t remember the pain, even if he remembers the experience), that doesn’t mean its more important than the billions of people who died without having a second chance, who were tortured and turned into demons for deals that may not have been evil. And while SAM wouldn’t care about them enough to mention them? Dean would.

Because Sam only wanted to close the gates of Hell to stop helping people (hunting), and was convinced not to do so when his brother promised that nothing would ever be more important than Sam. While Dean has always known that helping others is the best thing you can do with your life. And still, Dean was not talking about his own pain, or Sam’s pain, or Cas’s pain. Because the speech was not about an individual, but about humanity (Will come back to this later)

Because Sam’s father never abandoned Sam, to the contrary, kept watch on Sam even when Sam didn’t want him around. Kept Sam’s school mementos even when he was against said school activities, and told everyone who was willing to hear how proud he was of his Sammy.  Sam’s last moments with John had John apologizing to Sam, and making sure Sam didn’t know about the demon blood. John’s first priority was always Sam. So his daddy issues are born out of misunderstanding his father, not about being used as a tool to be discarded.

Because Sam’s prayers were always about answers for SAM, and  out of being told that there would be answers. Dean never prayed becuase he knew that the one prayer that mattered (for his mom to be saved) was never answered. Dean doesn’t ask for miracles, becuase he knows he is not going to get them.  And thus, his speech was not “why didn’t you answer ME” but “why didn’t you answer THEM”

Because Sam doesn’t remember (or care) about his torture because the show gave him closure. Just as it give him closure for his souless actions, and for his time with Gadreel. Because Dean has had to work with those who have been more cruel to him than any torutre Alastair made (Sam himself, have we forgotten?) and told he’s not a person for wanting to have some time for himself. And again? Sam wouldn’t be in this position if it wasn’t for Sam’s own pride. Which has nothing to do with the speech itself. Or did these people want it to be “Why are you forcing me to live with Lucifer?” rahter than “Why don’t you care about all those people who are innocent and love you?” rather than “Why are you not listening to your children who were lost without you and were forced to start an apocalypse?”

Because Sam’s faith has never been put through tests becuase at the end, he is always forgiven. He is always given an out. He is always purified.

And THIS speech was not about SAM and his suffering. Was about Humanity.

Was about how OTHERS were left alone. How the people who pray and go out on their own business, are still victims not only of monsters but of accidents. Of poverty. Of cruelty.

This speech is not about the Winchesters. Is about Humanity.

And the only Winchester who is selfless enough to say it without being a hypocrite? Is Dean.

you know what i love

i love when you find that one character. that character that is your absolute favorite. the character that, just by thinking of them, makes you incredibly emotional. you know that character is the one for you. they’re your number one. and you know you will never love another more