i need to learn how to tumblr but it all just seems to hard. ugh. someone help me!! oh wait yeah no followers. ok cool just gonna spend a few hours on my computer then so the reg

The good die young

Yesterday I found out that a kid I used to go to school with had died. It was said that he killed himself. I remember when suicide was all i could think about. When my mom and i were fighting it was on my mind everyday all day. The only thing that kept me from going through with was the thought of how much pain it would cause people. I didn't have a lot of friends in high school and I'm really surprised I didn't go through with sometimes. After this I'm so happy I never made that choice. This boy was a sweet and inspiring kid. All anyone can talk talk about is how much he helped people and what a great person he was. I'll never understand why he did it and I feel like it effects me so much because i was there but I don't think I would have ever gotten the same reaction. I feel like I need to work harder to beat this disease that drags us all down. I hope I can become the person i wan to be. And I hope when I go one day I can remembered with as much love and happiness as he is. His death will never be ok, I just hope maybe it will help anyone who needs help to get it.

haha this was the best night ever!