Two leap years ago today, I made the best decision of my life and broke up with my first boyfriend. The break up set off a chain reaction of events that I thought would break me, but it made me the person I am today and also was for the best.

It made me realise that I don’t need to settle. I don’t need to surround myself with fake positivity. That being a cunt for the sake of it will get me nowhere. That working hard to my goals is all that matters.

That year I “thought” I lost everything, as shortly after the break up I had a falling out with most of my friends. I blame my ex boyfriend, I blame them. Anyone but myself (even though I was likely the problem), but I actually gained so much more looking back on it.

Quality over quantity for one.

I can’t even imagine where I’d be today if I never broke up with him. I’m so glad I ended it. It’s turned me into a genuine and decent person, where before I was a miserable, bitchy, cunt of a person.

It might sound petty to be thanking the world for breaking up with someone, but I am so thankful. 2 leap years later, I’ve never been happier.

It’s been so worth it.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention I went to Japan a few weeks ago. Already planning on going again soon! ✨🇯🇵🏯

Nostalgic for a place I’ve never been.

My partner came out to his family yesterday.

They’ve essentially disowned him. They have given him the ultimatum of dumping me and living single till he dies to spare them the shame of having a gay son, or leaving the family home forever.

I feel totally helpless, all I can do is support him when and where I can whilst he goes through this traumatic event.

Happy New Year!

2021 is here and I know a lot of people are glad to see 2020 end. It’s been a year of change for a lot, mostly bad.

I’m glad my 2020 was a year full of good change for me, despite all that happened in the world.

I hope everyone can heal, continue to fight, and move past the negativity of world events that have happened in 2020 and look to the new year with some hope that light is at the end of the tunnel.

Stay safe everyone!

I’m alive lmao

I just realised my blog just celebrated its 10 year anniversary. Oh god that a wild ride the past decade has been. I feel like I’ve grown from a boy into a man in front of all of you (well, whoever is left here).

Just wanted to say thank you for sticking it out with me while I found myself. You all rock.

I got stood up tonight for the first time by a guy I thought I was getting along with really really well. I guess I should’ve known. It felt too good to be true to be quite honest.

Well, that’s his loss. I’m a good catch. I deserve better than that.

When you try something new with your hairstyle but end up looking the exact same as everyone else you follow 😅

I’m ready for a relationship but I’m not going to beg for one.

If someone wants to be a part of my life, I will let them in. If they want to play around and keep me at a distance then they can keep walking. I’m ready to find and be found by the one for me.

I don’t want this to come off as nasty or old fashioned, but why do so many gay guys want to be in open relationships these days? I’m selfish, I want my future man to myself. I feel like everyone these days on tinder and grindr seem to already be taken and I don’t want to feel like the second option. I’m worth it.

I was showing off my weight loss because I felt SKINNY at work but it turned out looking like a thot pic and I’m like.....lmfao I have no booty to show off

I miss going on dates.

You know, like actually getting dressed up, being picked up and surprised with a nice dinner, or a movie. Spontaneously being told “let’s go on an adventure” and end up going on a road trip to do something new and exciting.

Why are guys so boring these days? Nobody wants to excite and thrill anymore.

I am sorry but damn this is a good photo of me 😏

Fool me once, shame on you.

Fool me twice, shame on me.

Fool me three times, I’m a fucking idiot.

I should have known that it wouldn’t work out with you, after three attempts at it, you’re just not ready for a relationship. You always have to be right, you complain about how bad your life is but make no attempt to change it. However, you force your ideals onto me and expect me to like it. I didn’t. I can only do so much to motivate you - you change for you. If you want change, make it.

I’m in that period of my life where change can make or break my late twenties and my early thirties. I need all the positivity I can. People holding themselves back will only hold me back.

I didn’t want it to end in such a negative way because I do have feelings for you. However, life moves on.

I’ve got to do life for me, not for you.