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I used to never fully understand the love a parent had for their child, like I knew it was unconditional, but I never understood, not least till now I have a son, a perfect little combination of myself and my soul mate, and a little of his own craziness. I found myself thinking and I don't know why or how the thought came into my head but it did. I thought of my son being hurt purposefully, physically and emotionally, and something inside me tripped. Even though it was just a horrible thought I felt about ready to kill anyone who got in my way, like some sort of crazy adrenaline came over me just over a thought!! God forbid my son does ever get hurt like that and it saddens me to say he probably will as its part of growing up, but the protection I have for him is second to none. Like a wolf to its pack, protective and loyal. Never underestimate a wolf protecting her cub, never.

This is the body of a mum, a mum who gave birth almost a year ago, a mum who spends nearly every single day without fail with her beloved son, a mum who tries so hard to eat right and do exorcise but in reality she is just tired emotionally and physically. This is a mum who thought she should lose weight for everyone else, because it’s apparently socially unacceptable to be over weight now, because there are no excuses right? Wrong. If someone isn’t fit in their mind, they won’t be fit in their body. For a long time this mum fought with tiredness, loneliness, anger, depression… Herself. Now she has stood up to herself and seen that what her son sees when he looks at her is pure unconditional love, he doesn’t see fat or cellulite, he sees his mother who loves him and cares for him always, and if there is one thing this mum wants to teach her son it’s that. Looks are only skin deep, it’s what makes that person who they are that matters. Change for you, no one else, and this mum, me, has decided to live better and eat better for me, no one else, because the day my son sees me depressed over someone else’s views on myself is the day I feel I’m teaching him the wrong thing. Be yourself, love yourself, free yourself.