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That creak in my bones is not pain, it’s applause

@jackironsides / jackironsides.tumblr.com

Formerly delirieuse. He/him. 30-something disabled queer. Also jackironsides on AO3. I have a ko-fi (sindesiecle) that you can donate to instead of telling me my identity is a slur.
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Hello! Welcome to my pinned post. I update this as I go, so if you’re seeing it on a reblog, you might find extra fic links in the one on my blog.

FYI, I write a lot of comments and jokes in the tags. I love it when people enjoy them enough to include them in the reblogs (like I cannot express how much), but I’d prefer if you could attach my username to it, whether it’s just adding (via @jackironsides) or whatever. It’s clear to anyone seeing it on your blog, but I’ve seen my tags circulating unattributed on posts that have like six more reblogs after them often enough, and it makes me sad. I toiled hard in the joke mines for those, dammit.

If you’re interested in my fic, the tag is, obscurely enough, #my fic. Also my AO3 is jackironsides. Below the cut at the bottom of this post is the current list of my main WIPs that are being posted here, which are (mostly) not yet on AO3. They’re all Geraskier Witcher fics.

I have chronic pain, chronic fatigue, ADHD and histamine issues, and sometimes I talk about this.

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If you have any kind of issues with disordered eating, or you find it upsetting, you might want to blacklist the tag #disordered eating, because that’s what I talk about my difficulties with food sometimes, such as the bad days when making food is hard bc of my chronic fatigue, or ADHD, or both. Or the ways I’ve had to heavily restrict my diet for chronic illness reasons.

I have a tag called #bitch session, which is for when I’m grumpy and probably being petty, or just want to complain about how Hard things are in that moment. Feel free to block it.

Below the cut is my list of WIPs (with links!) and meta. x

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Obsessed by this statue I saw today in Le Havre (France) from the Italian sculptor Fabio Viale. The design isn't painted on... The ink is injected inside the marble like a real tattoo. And if I remember correctly what the guide said, it took the artist three weeks to do just that.

How stunning is this

So I looked this guy up because I wanted to know if he was contemporary or not because I'd heard that no one was really able to work marble in the ways of the 'old masters', but this guy is incredible! He's only 47, and beyond these incredible pigment tattoo sculptures, he's done some wack stuff with marble!

Yes this is marble.

Yes these are marble.

Hey did you guess, this is marble.

This is just a giant dong (made from marble). Titled, 'souvenir David'. 😁

More info and image sources here :

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skyburkson

Spiral Mountain Miniature from Banjo-Kazooie

made by hand from a whole lot of paper also made with floral wire, grass flocking, epoxy resin, acrylic rod, small rock pebbles, paint and LEDs

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Also on topic of Consent: whenever somebody says "Kids should have bodily autonomy!" some guy always is like "You are too unrealistic. What will you do when a kid is seeing the doctor and doesn't want to get a shot? Would you just let them refuse the shot?"

Yeah I probably would. You're straight up asking the wrong person if you want the nice normal answer here. Doctors and nurses forcibly doing (relatively routine) things to my body against my protests when I was a small kid fucked me up so bad that as an adult anything medical related is a huge trigger for me, I've had persistent intrusive thoughts and recurring nightmares about medical procedures, and I can't have even the most basic tests and health checks done on top of it.

I hate talking about it because I can't get comfortable calling it "trauma" and I don't have any other words that are useful, but it's made my life so much harder and really scary since if I start having a weird symptom, there's nothing I can move myself to do about it.

I figured out a loophole where going to a pharmacy instead of a doctor's office for vaccines reduces some of the stress, but I was still in stress and misery for days before I went to get my tetanus shot. The repulsion is so intense it feels like I literally don't have control over myself, it feels like I can't make appointments or plans about such things out of my own free will, and so every year I have guilt guilt guilt guilt guilt about how I should get the flu shot, and it does nothing but ineffectually hurt me.

Vaccines save lives and all that, but when it comes right down to it, I don't think it's actually a net benefit to public health to give any percentage of kids lifelong psychological scars so deep and painful they're almost completely barred from accessing health care as adults.

I know I'm not the only one, far from it.

Also it's probably actually small portion of kids that would still refuse the shot after having it sensitively and calmly explained why it's important, it might hurt a little but not a lot, it only takes two or three seconds, and being asked what would make them feel better about it or what could be done to make it better

A lot of nurses are demons that see that a kid is a little nervous and just go straight to fucking pinning them down and ignoring their screams of terror.

it's probably actually small portion of kids that would still refuse the shot after having it sensitively and calmly explained why it's important

YOU ARE CORRECT!

foster dad is a pediatrician and I worked in his clinic for a year! when the kiddos had shots scheduled, I was the person who would patiently explain it before they went in. and yes it makes a huge impact, no the kids don’t usually have a problem with it or start freaking out, and if they do, it’s mostly because of their parents. parents being impatient, parents manhandling and demanding, parents escalating the situation by attempting to impose their will upon the child rather than take their fears seriously.

i had a few different ways of explaining it. one of the most effective was The Big Bowl Of Bad Vegetables. ask the kid what their least favorite vegetable is and then make them think of how long and awful and unpleasant it would be to eat a whole bowl of it he size of some very large object in the room. “well a shot is like that. it kind of hurts because it’s like all the broccoli going in at once but that also means it’s over way faster. like less than 30 seconds. and then you don’t have to do it again for a whole year. I don’t know about you but I would take 30 seconds once a year over a bowl of broccoli the size of large object in view.”

if they’re still terrified, give them a hand to hold and a toy for buddy and tell them to chant “only 30 seconds” while looking away. literally cater to the terrified child. terrified children get hugs and kisses and comfort, not physical violence enacted upon their bodies as punishment for refusal to comply.

yes. kids have a right to understand and agree to what is going to happen to their own bodies that they live in. that would be true even if it was hard to provide and took an insane amount of effort and you had to bring the kid back over and over and over again to get the vaccine done. good doctors and nurses will absolutely refuse to vaccinate kids in a severe enough state of panic to require physical restraint to avoid the medical trauma. that is literally how you create adults afraid of doctors and medical treatment.

so yes. bodily autonomy for everyone is not option and it is especially not optional for kids undergoing medical treatment.

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rewatching elementary now with the knowledge Jonny Lee Miller had started with his own sobriety and recovery whilst filming is honestly transcendent. He is so GOOD. he is gut-wrenching. The scene where Sherlock explains his sobriety feels like a leaking faucet that requires constant maintenance and offers only not to drip in return - jlm does this thing with his voice where he's on the verge of tears but bored all at once. He's wrecked by a feeling he's utterly sick to death of having. It's such a compassionate performance. On another level it is truly crazy to me that we have so many Sherlock Holmes adaptations so eager to make Sherlock an addict, but Elementary is far and away the only adaptation that does that and takes the addiction seriously. Perhaps in part because of JLM's real life recovery, but we'll never know. On a rewatch, it's a lot :')

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Let's Talk About Missing Persons

So, I've seen this post circulating last week, and a few others like it in the past year. I think this probably needs to be discussed every few years, and it feels like time.

First, a few caveats: there are reports on the post that Abby has been located and is fine, so no need to reblog and also that's great news, I'm very happy she is safe. Second, I did not especially doubt the veracity of the post, so I'm not impugning the people who made and posted it, but I also declined to reblog it for reasons I'll get into. Third, I know that especially in marginalized communities it can be dangerous to involve the police, and that Missing White Woman Syndrome means it can be difficult to get media coverage. I understand why Abby's community may have chosen to search for her in the way they did.

However, for everyone's safety, I do not link any missing persons post that requires you to contact an individual to report the missing person's whereabouts. If the poster doesn't ask you to contact the police or a known missing persons organization, I won't do it.

This is for the safety of the missing person.

When you see a post with someone's photo, name, and last known whereabouts, and you are asked to contact an individual -- a family member, partner, friend, etc -- what you are being asked to do is report on the whereabouts of one person you don't know to another person you don't know. You don't know that the person you're talking to isn't an abusive partner or parent, a stalker, or a person who means them material harm. One of the Insta accounts in the missing image doesn't appear to exist, and another has no bio and very little captioning on their images. I couldn't verify that Abby even knew these people.

Again: when I looked at the image, it looked sincere to me. I didn't doubt those people were earnestly searching for a friend they were worried about. But also, an abuser doesn't look like an abuser until they do. So I don't make exceptions, because a missing person is missing but a victim outed to their abuser has strong odds of being murdered. The most dangerous time in the life of an abused person is when they are leaving their abuser. Even if a victim simply logs on to say "Hey, I'm fine, these people mean me harm" the abuser has now flushed them out of hiding, and manipulated them into making a public statement.

If you can't verify positively that the person searching does not mean the missing person harm, you should not be circulating a post, full stop. At the very least, if the community doesn't wish for the help of the police (understandable) or can't get the help of an organization or community (frequent), the missing persons poster should advise you to speak to the missing person, not the searcher, and notify them they're being sought, as long as it's safe for both you and them to do so.

This isn't intuitive. We want to help, and search posters like that tug on the heartstrings. We know that when the police get involved even in something this innocuous, it can be perilous for everyone. But in situations where someone is so vulnerable, we have to concern ourselves first with harm reduction, which in this case means not spreading someone's photo with a stranger's contact information on it.

I'm glad Abby was found and is fine and that her searchers were in earnest. But that will not always be the case, and it's important to remember that.

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dani-kin

My good sir I had a mortgage before any of those characters were published 💀

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kittydesade

I know who exactly three of these people are. When I was a kid I wanted to be a Herald of Valdemar.

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lireavue

I wanted to be Menolly with her entire Faire of fire lizards.

I wanted to be a Starfleet officer.

I wanted to be Dirk Pitt.

i wanted to be indiana jones

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vaspider

I wanted to be Han Solo.

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bookwyrmbran

I wanted to be Spock

Harriet the Spy

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dsudis

I wanted to be Harry Crewe

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not-poignant

I wanted to be Dana Scully

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I want to say more but I want to finish the book first, because there’s a LOT I want to say about the depth and consistency of characterization and how fucking good it is, but All The Painted Stars knocks it out of the park for me on so many levels including the little details, like petting a cat and watching the fluff float away, or women having leg hair, or a little kid having an intense interest in a topic and therefore telling you All About It

Like the characters all feel like real people whose actions I understand, but also the world is so deep and rich that I get it

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not a character who died and came back different or who died but came back the same but a character who died and came back extremely angry that you stopped digging for them

you were so close

why did you give up on me

why did I have to drag myself out of this grave without you

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inber

*holding my hat in my hands* well y'see the ppl in the cemetery were gettin all mad about. u know, the grave digging. aw babe don't bite my arm again don't be mad im sorry

BITE BITE BITE BITE

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