I was hoping it was a sick rumor...

When your eyes are puffy and hurt from crying so much, I never knew I had so many tears, I love you and already miss you. See you at the cross roads champ! God is raising your hand now, no more pain, no more suffering, as long as you're happy now I guess that's what matters. I still don't understand why but I guess I never will. R.I.P

Just watching videos on youtube and now I have a rant to state:

The past couple years the media has been promoting curvier women in magazines and such, which is AMAZING don't get me wrong! But they're promoting and talk around society is pushing thin women aside saying they're not women without curves or by saying how men prefer curves over sticks, like each man has his own preference, not every man likes the same body type. So while trying to boost the self esteem of the bigger girl the media seems to not care about the fact that they are lowering the self esteem of the thin girl by saying that having no boobs/ ass is not pretty or accepted. The media needs to promote both big and small as beautiful because that is exactly what women need to know, that as long as you are a good person you are beautiful! Because just as some big girls can't help but be big, some thin girls can't help but be thin. So saying someone doesn't deserve to be skinny is just another thing we need to stop also. Society wonders why girls aren't happy with their bodies, well its because they shove the idea of needing to be thin to be beautiful down the throats of big girls and they shove the idea of needing curves to be a woman down the throats of small girls. I know when I personally gain weight I don't gain curves in places I want so I remain at a personal healthy for myself, but I hate that I'm tall and lanky also, a simple twig, and I blame society for placing the image on girls that the opposite of their body type (regardless of what it is) is what's beautiful. I'm working on gaining muscle because that is what's going to make ME happy with my body. So if you actually got through reading this I'm pretty much saying FUCK SOCIETY'S OPINION, EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL! and if you're not happy with you're body, do something about it that will make you happy.

2 pounds under weight for tomorrow :D time to enjoy some food <3

I hate brushing my teeth at night because that signifies that you can't have anymore food and I'm just never ready for that kind of commitment!