11.25.1
My dissection on the 23rd has given me several new leads-- the precision of my work continues to suffer from my limited access to medical supplies, but the efficacy of the serum has not diminished with its glow. I suspect that the serum, in its repotentiation of the neurons, serves as an amplifier for signals that the living brain gives off too weakly to detect. This fits well into the overall pattern of its function, which mimics that of a powerful stimulant. Hopefully, I will be able to secure a living human subject for my next step, and gain access to a medical facility for the temporary use of an EEG. Alternatively, temporary access to medical records and equipment could bypass the necessity of securing a live specimen-- so long as I have comparable data from live and reanimated subjects, I do not need to secure it myself.
I accomplished very little yesterday, as most of my hours were eaten up in the thorough incineration of Eric's corpse and the organization of my materials for transport. Today I have undertaken the liquidation of the Clapham-Lee estate and the dismantling of all non-essential equipment. In a moment of strange panic, I booked a late-night flight that departs at midnight. I thought I felt Eric's cold gaze on my back, though I am confident that his consciousness has been entirely eliminated, and I was struck by the impulse to return to my old home and the memories of safety it provides. It was a foolish impulse, but I believe that the action is illogical enough that I will not be suspected. Besides which, it has been years, and the town has surely changed.
Regardless, my flight arrives in Arkham at 8am. I have packaged my more common instruments and shipped them this morning, and done my best to disguise a few dismantled incubators and the majority of my reptile cell pluripotentiation rig amidst the boxes. I have sent them to the care of my alma mater, Miskatonic Medical School, under the guise of a private foreign doctor moving to the area with a reclusive and wealthy patient. My papers will identify me as expatriated Greek physician Victor Pokiliobolous, caring for an unusual older gentleman by the name of Albert Wilmarth. I am, at this junction, still uncertain about the best means of transporting Wilmarth to Arkham. He has been increasingly coherent of late, though his delusions persist, but I fear that any implantation into a body, however fresh or well-suited, may disturb the delicate equilibrium of his psychology-- not to mention the physical and chemical stress such a procedure would place on my most successful subject. Nonetheless, I cannot see any method of transporting him in his current state that would not involve such complex machinery and environmental requirements as to make his discovery unavoidable. Perhaps I should have retained Eric's body, though the very idea chills me to the core with an illogical horror I cannot express. How, after all, can I be certain of the destruction of his will and identity when any part of him survives? The likelihood of such a thing existing without the presence of the brain is, of course, astronomically low, but even I do not possess a thorough enough understanding of the human body to guarantee its impossibility. I will have to find another vessel for Wilmarth, and quickly. I am already cursing my manic impulse-- I am lucky to have had the forethought to purchase a second ticket, and I left myself barely the time to operate, much less stabilize him.
Still, I am spared some of the panic-- in the last week I planned for some movement of my materials, though it was more a precaution in the case of Eric's survival than the premeditation of my sudden relocation. My most vital specimens-- not including Dr. Wilmarth, obviously-- have been implanted in the wombs of several large monitor lizards, which have been engineered to be supportive of non-reptilian life through alteration of the composition of the liquor amnii and some small changes to the permeability of the associated membranes. The size and number of the lizards strained both the credulity and regulated limitations of the airline, but they have also been secured passage. I will be forced into some highly creative endeavors in finding them space upon arrival-- assuming, of course, that they survive. This process becomes more and more complex and unattractive with every passing moment, but I find myself nearly sick with anticipation, regardless. But there is much to be done.