elliedaulby reblogged
did you sometimes just go to the park or mall or whatever and you see so many beautiful girls and wonder ‘why i can’t be like them?” and then you go home and look in the mirror and you are so angry and you start crying and hating yourself so much and think how unhappy and unwanted and ugly and fat you are and you just feel so awful and you lock yourself in the bathroom or your bedroom and stay there destroying yourself with self-hating thoughts and then when your parents call you to dinner you just lie that you ate already but you wish you can tell the truth to them but you don’t want them to feel awful too so you just stay there and try to take small breaths while your srying in silence in the dark.
That’s just how i feel. (via 66-letters-from-hell)
Me rn
