The boy who lies and punches walls
This is kind of super long but I wanted to give you guys something :) May be triggering but it's more about recovery than not. x x x
Demons
Also my chapter phanfiction Demons is here :)
Bullying
If you are being bullied, you should definitely talk to someone. I know you’ll be scared about it and stuff, because you think it’ll get worse. But consider this - can it actually get any worse? It can only get better, in reality, and if you have someone to talk to and help you, things will seem better anyway.
Another thing is that sometimes people don’t realise that they’re a bully - but if you ever call someone a name, or join in laughing at them, you are upsetting them and how do you know that they don’t go home and cry/cut/think about suicide? You should never join in with laughing at someone just to feel as if you belong, because you’ll really regret it one day. And everyone deserves to be happy. If you don’t like someone, leave them alone.
This song is a good one to listen to - it provokes thought and makes you really think about the way you treat other people: Hero by Superchick
Bye guys
Hey guys
I guess I owe you all an explanation of some kind after just vanishing for like two months or something. So, this is it, really. I was okay, really, but stuff started to get to me - mainly school and the terrifying fact that the future was very imminent seeing as I was just about to leave school and my exams were coming up and ugh so I guess I just went a bit crazy for a while and needed a bit of help.
I’m okay now, but my parents don’t want me to come back to Tumblr due to the unfortunate anon hate I was getting before. (because I'm bisexual omg shoot me). I guess they’re right - I’m hopefully going to university in October as I sat my exams in the treatment centre I was in, and I’ll have a lot less time. They sent me a reading list the other day and it's literally the size of SEVEN LARGE MOUNTAINS. No joke.
I will miss Tumblr though, because the phandom is such a brilliant community of people and I actually loved communicating with you all a lot. You genuinely made me so happy, even when everything else didn’t. You are all brilliant, funny, beautiful people. I'm obviously not going to stop watching Dan and Phil - I've already caught up on the videos I missed wooo! <3
If I would give you one piece of advice, from what I learnt, it is that you must ask for help if you need it. Honestly, asking for help isn’t as scary as you think it will be, and it’s so worth it in the end. I have honestly never been happier.
I wanted to thank you all for being so brilliant to me, and all of you people who were so lovely about my writing and my drawings, you really really made me feel good. I’ll still be lurking probably stalking Jen’s blog and stuff just to keep in the loop ya know >:)
I might start writing again, you can find my fanfiction account here, and maybe I can roleplay with some of you or something. You could message me on ff.net if you ever wanna talk or whatever, or if you have any questions etc.
I wrote one last thing for you guys on here called “The boy who lies and punches walls” which is kind of sort of what happened to me, but with some things changed and phan stuff in it just because. Writing it helped me process everything, and I’ve really started moving on now.
I also found a couple of poems I wrote that got deleted and you can find them here and here. I posted an unrelated poem too, here, which I wrote in the treatment centre to show how you shouldn’t assume someone is okay because you don’t know what’s going on underneath.
I’ve also posted a couple of bits of advice and things that help me on here, because I didn’t wanna leave you guys without anything and I love you all.
Thank you to everyone who sent me a message via Jen whilst I was away, they really helped me and made me smile like an idiot <3 Thanks to Jen for being like a saint, omg, she's so nice (if you don't follow her you should click here for the nicest person ever) and also to Amber for saving the URL for me, which was so thoughtful aw.
I love you all :)
ps nobody be sad it's for the best i promise
x x x
Open your eyes
When he called her beautiful
He didn’t know
About the spiderweb scars
Or the vodka shots at 3am.
And he didn’t know
About the needle tracks
Or the burns marks on her hips.
And he didn’t know
About how her mum beat her
Or how her daddy left her.
And he didn’t know
That she was broken
And bruised.
And he didn’t know
That inside she was anything
But beautiful.
He didn’t know about the tears
The blades, the pills,
The burn of whisky in her throat.
He didn’t know
That she was irreparable.
All he knew was that
She had a pretty face
Because he never
Opened his eyes.
Bye guys
Hey guys
I guess I owe you all an explanation of some kind after just vanishing for like two months or something. So, this is it, really. I was okay, really, but stuff started to get to me - mainly school and the terrifying fact that the future was very imminent seeing as I was just about to leave school and my exams were coming up and ugh so I guess I just went a bit crazy for a while and needed a bit of help.
I’m okay now, but my parents don’t want me to come back to Tumblr due to the unfortunate anon hate I was getting before. (because I'm bisexual omg shoot me). I guess they’re right - I’m hopefully going to university in October as I sat my exams in the treatment centre I was in, and I’ll have a lot less time. They sent me a reading list the other day and it's literally the size of SEVEN LARGE MOUNTAINS. No joke.
I will miss Tumblr though, because the phandom is such a brilliant community of people and I actually loved communicating with you all a lot. You genuinely made me so happy, even when everything else didn’t. You are all brilliant, funny, beautiful people. I'm obviously not going to stop watching Dan and Phil - I've already caught up on the videos I missed wooo! <3
If I would give you one piece of advice, from what I learnt, it is that you must ask for help if you need it. Honestly, asking for help isn’t as scary as you think it will be, and it’s so worth it in the end. I have honestly never been happier.
I wanted to thank you all for being so brilliant to me, and all of you people who were so lovely about my writing and my drawings, you really really made me feel good. I’ll still be lurking probably stalking Jen’s blog and stuff just to keep in the loop ya know >:)
I might start writing again, you can find my fanfiction account here, and maybe I can roleplay with some of you or something. You could message me on ff.net if you ever wanna talk or whatever, or if you have any questions etc.
I wrote one last thing for you guys on here called “The boy who lies and punches walls” which is kind of sort of what happened to me, but with some things changed and phan stuff in it just because. Writing it helped me process everything, and I’ve really started moving on now.
I also found a couple of poems I wrote that got deleted and you can find them here and here. I posted an unrelated poem too, here, which I wrote in the treatment centre to show how you shouldn’t assume someone is okay because you don’t know what’s going on underneath.
I’ve also posted a couple of bits of advice and things that help me on here, because I didn’t wanna leave you guys without anything and I love you all.
Thank you to everyone who sent me a message via Jen whilst I was away, they really helped me and made me smile like an idiot <3 Thanks to Jen for being like a saint, omg, she's so nice (if you don't follow her you should click here for the nicest person ever) and also to Amber for saving the URL for me, which was so thoughtful aw.
I love you all :)
ps nobody be sad it's for the best i promise
x x x