crooked.

sana masaya ka universe sa nakita mong pagrollercoaster ng puso ko ngayong gabi

Ayoko sana magbibili ng damit kasi gusto ko muna pumayat HAHAHAA pero nagkakaroon na ko ng urge tuwing may nakikita ko aa shopee lazada tsaka sa mga new stores na tinitingnan ko like staffcowear, skoop, tsaka 0917 hajsjanfkanckmsv

Took me years to actually learn to sligtly give more love to my body than what i usually had.

My body weight and figure is one of the things im insecure about with body. Kaya i prefer having portrait photos na chest above or selfie ay para hindi makita yan. Like mas madali ialign yung angle para hindi ako mukhang mataba.

I fooled myself into thinking im not that big dahil dyan sa ginawa ko. I disliked asking ppl to take photos of myself for ig ganon kasi i dont like seeing my body like this. Kung di lang ako hinype ng friend ko, maybe iwouldn't even have posted this.

Do i wanna lose weight? Definitely. Pero i dont wanna go through such rigorous process of strict diet for that. Baka maging unhealthy at mas lumobo ako if i stopped dieting.

Will i exercise? Maybe. Pero i guess I'll start doing what i want muna. Di ko iforce sarili ko to follow strict workout routines na mageend up na tatamarin lang ako kasi nga its too hard for me to keep up. I keep getting discouraged easily pag di ko nagagawa.

Hopefully i get to post photos of myself im proud of in the future. Yung kahit walang abs pero physically fit naman at definitely less insecure than how insecure i am in the past.

Here's to more self love. 💕

Alaskaboi era no more cryo vision holder na