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@beakaleak32 / beakaleak32.tumblr.com

I'm Beaks. 90% SPN, 10% Other Fandoms. Dean-Girl, Sam-Curious, and J2-Convention Trash. Mostly Wank/Ship Free, Not Always Spoiler Free. Check out my links for more info. AKF, YANA, and LYF Supporter.
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Hey ya'll. Long time.

I'm reaching out to my fellow creatives and SPN family to see if anyone knows of a good (and safe) place to download episodes of Supernatural that can be used for videos. I'm getting back into watching because I....ya know...*mumbles* never finished the show.....

And now I have a plot bunny stalking me about making a SPN video. Hopefully if Creation is still doing contests I can enter it at Chicago 2024.

So if anyone knows anything please comment or message me. Thanks!

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OMG YOU ARE BACK?!

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I seem to have found my way back to my dash. I’m not sure what the future holds, but hello again! :)

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Here is a story all about the best moment of JAX Con for myself. I was going up to get Jared’s auto and had a photo op to get signed, but I thought I want something more meaningful. I have struggled with depression and serve anxiety since I was 16 years old. In August of 2015, I lost my best friend, my light, my mother. A friend suggest to watch Supernatural to get my mind off things. Well, about a month later I was hooked. This show carried my through long nights of horrible grief, early mornings of stressful choices I had to make after losing my mom, and was an outlet for me to feel somewhat reconnected with her via the classic rock, the humor, and so many other things. During the JAX Con J2 panel, he had stated his therapist was actually the one who had told him the whole I am enough line. For months I took that to heart, I wrote it down daily. It helped in ways I can’t even express. I went up to him with this blank sheet of card stock and said I know you’re probably not allowed but could you write I am enough so I could get it tattooed. He so kindly said, I will write whatever you want. So, he wrote it, paused for a moment, looked at me and said, now I want you to write it down right underneath mine. Starting to tear up, I grabbed the sharpie, and jotted down the phrase that had carried me daily. He then grabbed it back and signed it, then said now you sign your signature too. I was so taken back by the fact that he didn’t want it to just be about him, he wanted me to know that I am no different than he is. That I too am enough. I looked up and he shook my hand, and he said hey, what are you? I said, I am enough. His reply, Fuck yeah you are.

This man is something we should all strive to be. Caring, loving, open about our struggles so that other people can feel encouraged by them as well. I can’t say how grateful I am for this card stock piece of paper. I cannot wait to get it tattooed as a reminder of one of the best days of my life, but as a daily reminder that I am enough.. just as I am.

And yes, I cried typing this. To all my fellow friends and followers please know you are enough just as you are.

This is beautiful

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MERRRYYY CHRISTMASS!!

Hello! Or should I say, Ho Ho Ho!

I know I have been almost completely MIA this past month. I have continued to be super busy, along with some bleghhh feelings I have discovered to be a bit of seasonal depression as I go through Christmas without my Dad. I have had some time this weekend to at least sleep and relax, and I have family and friends to support me too. Here’s to 2017 being a much better year!

When I logged in, I discovered something marvelous:

I have been flirting in the high 300s for at least 6 months, and I was so surprised that my least active months were what got me to 400! Thank you so much! I really do appreciate all of you!

I don’t know what the end of this year and the start of the next will bring, but I will do my best to log in and chat with you guys more. I actually woke up yesterday with some plot bunnies jumping around in my brain for a new ficlet, so we will see if I can get that going or not (because why not start something new when you have so much still to finish?!)

I hope you all have a fabulous day! <3

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