Saoirse Ronan and Eliza Scanlen in Little Women (2019)

• even if i don’t like my body today i will take care of it
• even if i don’t like myself today i will still be patient and kind with myself
• even if i do not love myself i will still take care of and be kind to myself, despite not wanting to

• it’s not as pretty and put together as dark academia
• you’re wearing two cardigans, mismatched socks and some jeans that are bordering on “just about clean enough”. nothing will stand between you and your next cup of tea/coffee/hot chocolate and adding extra sugar.
• emptying your pockets at the end of the day and coming to a total of four pens, a pocket notebook, two receipts, and a highlighter.
• your hair keeps falling in your face. you use a rubber band to tie it back. your fringe falls in your face. a paperclip is used to keep it back for the next ten minutes. you probably need a haircut.
• the floor is the best place to study. there are so many books and pages of notes scattered around that the carpet can’t be seen anymore.
• a rush before you leave class. your ID? got it. keys? got them. wait, where did your ID go again..? did you put your phone in your backpack or in any of the nine pockets on your person.
• trash is piled up neatly in the corner, ready to be put into a rubbish bag and taken out. you’ll do it tomorrow, you say. you said the exact same thing last week.
• you’re typing and you miss a letter. you go back to fix it. you miss a different letter. you go back to fix it. somehow you have fewer letters than you started with. you take it as a sign to take a break.
• it’s time for a quick break. half an hour later you realise that you still haven’t gone back to work. Whoops.

• you’ve replied to an email. while doing so, three more emails needing a reply came in. you put them off til tomorrow
• yes you have a calendar to keep track of classes/meetings. you also have a weekly planner and a daily to-do list. you forget to fill any of these out
• your last pair of trousers got a hole in and you don’t have time to go trouser-shopping, so it’s leggings/shorts/skirts for the rest of term, gender presentation be damned
• it’s the first week of term. you look away for five minutes. it’s the sixth week of term